Weekends with O'Keeffe

C. S. Merrill

• Éditeur: University of New Mexico Press
• Année: 2013
• ISBN:
  9780826349309
• Sujet: Kunst
• Sous-sujet: Künstlerbiographien

Winner of the 2012 Zia Award from New Mexico Press Women

In 1973 Georgia O'Keeffe employed C. S. Merrill to catalog her library for her estate. Merrill, a poet who was a graduate student at the University of New Mexico, was twenty-six years old and O'Keeffe was eighty-five, almost blind, but still painting. Over seven years, Merrill was called upon for secretarial assistance, cooking, and personal care for the artist. Merrill's journals reveal details of the daily life of a genius. The author describes how O'Keeffe stretched the canvas for her twenty-six-foot cloud painting and reports on O'Keeffe's favorite classical music and preferred performers. Merrill provided descriptions of nature when she and the artist went for walks; she read to O'Keeffe from her favorite books and helped keep her space in meticulous order.

Throughout the book there are sketches of O'Keeffe's studio and an account of once assisting O'Keeffe at the easel. Jockeying for position among the helpers O'Keeffe relied upon was part of daily life at Abiquiu, where territorial chows guarded the property. Visitors came from far and wide, among them Eliot Porter and even Allen Ginsberg accompanied by Peter Orlovsky. All this is revealed in Merrill's straightforward and deeply respectful notes. Reading her book is like spending a weekend with O'Keeffe in the incomparable light and clear air of Northern New Mexico mountains and desert.

[ 1973 ] 1

August 12, 1973, Sunday night, very late

—First visit with Georgia O’Keeffe

I have a very tired body after too much driving, but my spirit is happy. I told my parents that they would never ever see me any happier. Today, after staying overnight at the Lawrence Ranch, I drove to Abiquiu to keep my appointment with Georgia O’Keeffe. I must record my first impressions in utmost detail. Because of my weariness I will tape my memory and transcribe later. I do this recording of the meeting out of responsibility to women in the future who must know what a strong, great lady Miss O’Keeffe is. Miss O’Keeffe has asked me to return next weekend to put her library in order. That will be quite an enormous chore. So there will be more. Because my eyes burn after much driving, I resort to my Panasonic tape recorder now, not out of disloyalty to Miss O’Keeffe’s privacy, rather out of affection for the freer ladies of the future who may need a toughening influence from this great lady. But I promise that I shall never betray any confidence the lady places in my hands as a secret, should I be worthy of such trust.

—Transcription of the tape:

The sounds in the background of this tape are cars speeding out on Lead Avenue. There may be an occasional cat meow, so the tape will be far from perfect, but it’s meant as a record to key my memory so that I can transcribe from it later. This has been one of the most important events of my life. Today, August 12, after leaving my parents in Taos, I drove down to Abiquiu and visited Georgia O’Keeffe. The instructions were to go to her house, honk once, and someone would answer at the gate. I arrived in Abiquiu one hour early just to make sure I could find the place, parked a ways down the road from her house and walked around the village for a while to get my bearings and to relax from the hot driving. It was a Sunday morning. There were Spanish voices in the adobe houses. In a big square, some fellows were leaning against a fence talking. There was a girl running across the square. There was a group of men picking apricots off the overloaded apricot tree. There were smells of breakfast. A man was shouting at his child, and then the child was crying when he got hit. Soft gravel was underfoot. It was a rather cloudy morning, but very warm, and I remember hearing a stream flowing past. As I walked, no one seemed to question my presence. No one seemed to slow down. And I felt quite comfortable in this little hillside town with beautiful ridges and mountains around. Red cliffs and grey cliffs were etched with white, and there were clouds, lumpy bumpy ones like Miss O’Keeffe paints in the book I have of hers. I was very edgy and eager but knew that I must be polite and wait until the appointment was to begin. So at ten o’clock I walked back toward the car and sat. As I was sitting, I noticed a little boy who I had seen earlier walking down the street with an air rifle back on the O’Keeffe grounds. And then I heard the squawk of a bird, flopping around on the ground with a lot of noise. A black cat came out of the bushes and pounced on the bird, and there was no more noise. One of the most enduring symbols of my life has been around unhappy occasions; there seems to be the omen of a dead bird, but usually an already killed bird. I decided that this was not a very good thing to be happening three or four minutes from the moment before I go into her house, but I steeled my courage, ready for a disappointment, ready to meet a senile old woman, ready to meet an angry witch, ready to meet a real let-down, ready to be supported only by her paintings, not by the personality that would be behind the work. I drove into the parking area up to the locked gate with a sign that said, “Beware of the dog.” It was a round drive outside of the locked gate. Covered with loose gravel, it looked as if it would accommodate many cars. There was a kind of cliff-like effect looking out over a vast space from this hillside over orchards, green valley, pasture, horses, and then red barren cliffs again, the blue sky and the white clouds. No one answered at the gate even though I honked. So I stopped the motor, put on the brake and waited. I opened the car door and saw a form moving from the bushes over at another gate. It was O’Keeffe. I could tell from the recent pictures that I had seen of her. She was wearing a loose-fitting white gown which was really just a billowing white dress made of a satin-like material that looked like stripes of satin ribbon interlaced with stripes of just plain cotton. She had a blue shiny shawl around her shoulders, and she looked quite frail, but curious about who was honking. So I stood and closed the car door, oblivious of leaving the key in the ignition and the door unlocked, all of the things in the car, just walking to see the great lady who I had wondered about for so long. She stood there, and as I walked toward her, she made a startled movement like she was just a little frightened. She moved toward the gate and I stopped, as if to say that I meant her no harm. I didn’t mean to rush her; I didn’t mean to surprise her, and she gestured impatiently, “Come on.” I walked up to her, and extended my hand, and introduced myself, and she inquired if I had someone else with me, and I said, “No.”

She said, “Are you the one who wrote?”

And I said, “Yes.”

And she said, “Well, don’t you have your husband and two children?”

And I said, “Well, I’m someone else who wrote.”

She smiled and took me inside the little plaza inside the door, and we walked across the plaza which was enclosed on all four sides with hallways leading off, and the roof was the sky and the plant inside was a sagebrush. It was like being still outside but quite protected. And we walked to one of the doors straight ahead along the flat stones set in the ground, bricks set in the ground, and the door was covered with slatted bamboo shades. She couldn’t find the doorknob too well, and I recognized the fact that she couldn’t see so well, so I helped her open the door and we walked inside to a very cool, spacious room, a long room. At one end of the room was a window looking out on a salt cedar tree. She asked me to raise the blind a little more and bid me not to stand on the rocks that were in the window. There were many smooth rocks, some large, some small, all smooth-edged different colored rocks. So I stood on the edge of her sofa and lifted her shade. It was just down about a foot. The window went from maybe a foot off the ground clear to the ceiling, which was maybe twelve feet. She had me sit in a chair next to some lilies, which smelled very sweet. She sat next to the window and asked who I was, where I worked, and where I had grown up. In the meantime I noticed the sweet smell of the lilies, and she asked me how many were blooming.

I said, “Four, and one is opening.”

She said, “That’s funny. There were five full blooms yesterday.”

Later when I stood up, I saw that there were five blooms and one other one was opening. They were white lilies with pink dots on them, very tall, about six feet tall, twining up out of a small pot.

She had a phone call, and while she was gone, I was walking up and down the long room getting the feel of the place, looking at the African violet and the huge pine cone on the glass table. It was one huge slab of glass on a stump. It is surprising how much I didn’t see while I was there though my eyes were moving at all times. I walked back toward the dining room, and a lady came out of the kitchen. She gestured me in. She was wearing white, and she had curly hair and was obviously Spanish and couldn’t speak much English. I thought she must be from the village, and she was showing me how she was making apple pie. Miss O’Keeffe walked back into the dining room. She seemed startled not to find me in the chair where I had been sitting. I didn’t know how long she would be on the phone. I went back to the chair and we talked more then.

And she’s very graceful, the lady, Miss O’Keeffe. All the wrinkles on her face merely make her more expressive to my mind. She was very interested in the fact that I work in a library and said that she had a lot of books but that I probably wouldn’t want to look at them because I spend all of my week with books, and this was probably a vacation.

I said, “Well, I enjoy books, and I would be very happy to see them.”

She thought at first that I might be a librarian, and I explained that I was a secretary at the university library. She took me back out onto the open plaza. I looked more closely at her living room a little later when I was invited to lunch. We went out onto the plaza, back down to the door where it went outside, and I noticed to the left was a huge skull with antlers, a big elk skull hanging on the wall. And underneath it was a big blue pan with some rocks, and there were more rocks on this sitting place, the banco made of adobe. To the right there was a door, a screen door, and inside the screen door, another door, a black door. She had forgotten her keys so I went back for them, this time through another door, which was more to the right of the door that led to the living room and went into the dining room. On the corner of the table was a brass key ring. The table was made of plywood. Walls everywhere were adobe, smooth and beautiful. I saw another plaza in front of me as I walked into the dining room. But I took the keys and went quickly back to Miss O’Keeffe across the little courtyard with the sagebrush. She opened the door into her library, or book storage room I would call it. There I was met with a single window and shelves and shelves of books.

She looked at me with a half smile and said, “It’s really hopeless, isn’t it?”

I said, “Well, you may need more shelves.”

There were crates of books and boxes of books; books stacked upon books on some structure in the center. I believe it was a table. When we looked around, she showed me her collection of books from Mexico. Poetry books weren’t very high up on the shelves because she said with a laugh, looking at me, that she didn’t like poetry, that she couldn’t understand it. And she has the Time-Life series of travel books and interesting books on animals and places. She has a set of books on cooking: Scandinavian cooking, New England cooking, and Southern cooking. She has numerous art books, though she said most of her art books had been given away to Fisk for a song because she got really tired of them when she moved here. She showed me a box of her correspondence. She kept a typed list of whatever was in each box, and she needs to be able to find books when she wants them. I noticed later in her living room there was a very powerful reading lamp and a magnifying glass and a case. So apparently she does some reading, but not without difficulty. I’m sure that she has trouble finding the books so she needs assistance. She told me that she needs assistance in placing the books in some order so that she can find them when she wants a cookbook or when she wants a book on herbs, on gardening, or on Mexico. She wants all of her books on Mexico all together. I told her I would like to help her, but I would have to think about it. I’d have to look things over. Of course, I’m trembling with delight all this time that there is actually something that I can do besides just ask her questions. It’s one reason I came to ask if there was any way I could assist her because I admire her art, her work, her life, her being.

This taping is going to take much, much work, because I can remember details of the things that I saw, but they will be difficult to describe. Perhaps later when I am transcribing, they will come out more clearly in words as I am writing.

To speak is so very different from writing. The woman looks very thin but very vital. She hears well. Her eyes, one eye is different from the other. The left one seems more open than the right one. The right one seems squinted down. She expresses herself with her hands very well. There’s something about the delicacy of her fingers and her gestures that is really quite taking, quite entrancing. She did notice some things about my movements, though. I think she saw my grosser movements, not my finer ones, because I think she cannot see so much. She left me in the library because two ladies came to the door. One was a grey-haired woman who looked about the same age as Miss O’Keeffe, saying, “Georgia! Georgia!” This was apparently the lady who she had been expecting along with another woman. They proceeded on toward the living room. She said that I should stay in the library if I wanted. I was really pleased at that, because I wasn’t ready for any more company at the moment. I’d been waiting so long for this meeting that I must confess I was not completely with all my wits. I was so astonished at her presence. She does have a presence. She is very conscious. Yes, there’s a consciousness about the woman.

In her library I found Hokusai, books of short stories, biographies, quite a miscellany of things. They remained in really very poor order, but she has two or three shelves of books about India. She has one huge shelf of Camera Work. She had one large book by Stieglitz still wrapped in plastic, looked like leather, something about Sun Pictures or Sun. There was a poster of hers, carefully covered, the pink and blue arches (Music—Pink and Blue No. 1, 1918). The place was rather dusty. I felt extremely dusty after leaving a little later, but I was there about a half hour to forty-five minutes, looking, getting acquainted with the lady through her taste in literature. I looked through the little book of prints by Hokusai. I enjoy Hokusai’s views of Fuji so much that I was completely entranced. On another shelf containing books about Japan, I found the Gardens of Kyoto. I found that really pacifying, and saw remarkable similarities to some lines in her paintings in some of the lines in the gardens. I said to her later that her collection of books was very remarkable because there were some things there that I had never seen.

She said, “Oh truly it was remarkable, but I don’t know where anything is. It was all mixed up.”

I asked her if she wanted them in Library of Congress order or if she wanted them by author alphabetically. She said a friend, a male friend of hers, had alphabetized them by author at one time, but they had gotten mixed up mostly. Some of them were still in that order. In the meantime, she had an appraiser come who had turned some of the books on their sides. Also she had four or five stacks of books she was giving to a private school in Española that she needed a list made of so that she would know what she was losing or getting rid of. I could see I really had my work cut out for me.

And she said, “You know if I had you working here, I think you’re so interested in the books, I would find you in here reading instead of working.”

I said, “That’s an occupational hazard of librarians.”

She seemed to enjoy that. But after I sat in her library for a while, I found that it was very warm. There was a kaleidoscope in there too, and it was very pretty. There was a little woven basket-type thing with feathers hanging, very small, like something you might hang from a Christmas tree, and there was an abalone shell filled with marbles, and a basket, an Indian basket with holes in it, and an Indian pot with holes punched in it. It was obviously made for a strainer or something like that. There was one single light in the whole library, and it was right in the middle. The place is heated by a gas heater which is on the wall next to the door. The window is covered by a simple white muslin curtain, with white shelves around, irregular shelves too. They had their own designs, some extending out a little over space. Everything in her house has a flair, a feeling as if thought has gone into the placement of a rock in a niche on the wall. After I got tired of sitting in the library for so long without her returning, I decided I should wait while they were talking in the living room. I decided to go to the other room I was acquainted with which would be cooler, the dining room.

There by the kitchen door I sat at a chair which was against the wall so that I could look through the wide doorway and see Miss O’Keeffe sitting next to the window behind a small topiary tree, and I could watch her gestures as she talked and the way she crossed her legs with the right foot slightly under the left one extended, wearing whit...

Table des matières

• Cover
• Half title
• Title
• Copyright
• Contents
• Acknowledgments
• Introduction
• 1 1973
• 2 1974
• 3 1975
• 4 1976
• 5 1977
• 6 1978
• 7 1979
• Afterword
• Index