STEP ONE
CHAPTER ONE
Being Luminous
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didnât do than by the ones you did do.
â Mark Twain
The Encarta Dictionary defines luminous as âemitting or reflecting light, startlingly bright, inspiring, radiant, resplendent, stunning, splendid.â
Our experience is luminous not when we are thinking about living our lives, but when we are fully engaged physically in reality. The experiences that reflect luminosity are those based on actions taken with clarity, focus, ease, and grace. By clarity, I mean seeing what is truly important and creating a game worth playing and goals worth playing for. By focus, I mean directing our energies and attention toward accomplishing what calls to our hearts. By ease, I mean venturing farther than we normally would in going for our dreams â with a bit of elegance instead of struggle. Finally, grace means being consistently grateful and using spiritual principles so that we are ever aware that all is well.
Luminosity â itâs worth emphasizing â is clarity, focus, ease, and grace in action. It canât be invoked by psychological insight or analysis. Itâs fresh. Luminosity doesnât comb its hair but rather lets the winds of life blow freely through it.
My friend Aimee had a luminosity wake-up call while sitting over cappuccino and croissants with orange marmalade on her fortieth birthday.
âI was in a local coffeehouse, sitting alone at my favorite table, reading one of those books that help you take stock of your life. One question stuck out: âWhat do you want people to remember you for?â Suddenly it dawned on me that I didnât know what people would say about me. And then I saw something I didnât like. Given what I focused on when I talk to my friends, theyâd probably put the following on my tombstone: âHere lies Aimee. She had issues.â That definitely wasnât what I wanted to be there. I wanted something more.â
Luminosity is about that âsomething more.â It is about taking a deep breath and knowing that all is well. It is about being successful without being exhausted. It is about locating your natural heart of compassion and seeing what you really want to be doing with your life â not what you should do, not even what you ought to do, but what you really want to do.
I know about the âissuesâ Aimee referred to. As a clinical psychologist, Iâve been trained in different psychotherapy approaches. I was in psychoanalysis myself as part of my training â three times a week for ten years. Lying on a couch, I talked (and talked) about my issues. To be fair, much of what I discovered helped me become less anxious and more centered. But my problems and dilemmas consumed my attention. They took center stage when I talked with friends about what I wanted to do with my life. It never occurred to me that continually analyzing my problems was not the key.
Then, as I approached my own fortieth birthday, I got restless. I was bored with how I thought and talked about my life. In the early eighties I went to a series of seminars on self-transformation. A light suddenly turned on. I glimpsed a new way of thinking that wasnât based on diagnosing and treating what was wrong. In those seminars we looked not so much at why we thought the way we did but at what we were doing with our lives. I saw that everyone wants to know that his or her life makes a difference â that we all count for something.
Still, I didnât attain luminosity. I took what I learned and single-mindedly pursued my goals and dreams. But it went too far. After a while I saw that I had become, as my friend Ellie put it, a âsuccess object.â I was a walking, talking success machine. I was doing a lot â driven to raise the bar, go farther and faster, to prove myself. I compared myself with every other person who was successful and always came out on the bottom. Youâve probably never done this yourself ...or have you?
As a result of all this activity, I achieved goals but was often too exhausted to enjoy what I had done. I looked for what was next, never what was right in front of me. It was no fun.
We really do teach what we need to learn. For example, I wrote The Energy of Money to help people use money in accord with spiritual principles so that they can be prosperous from the inside out.1 The book came about because of a bad business investment I had made, and so I spent years teaching these principles to others so that they wouldnât make similar mistakes in their own lives.
Now Iâm learning about luminosity, even as I write this book. Luminosity is about living the life you were meant to live, without running yourself into the ground and driving those around you crazy. I have been privileged to learn about luminosity in the presence of about fifty thousand others â ministers, millionaires, mentors, students, health-care professionals, grandparents, in short, people of all ages and interests â who have taken seminars from me over the past twenty years. What you will find here is their stories, along with the principles that emerged for living the luminous life.
The luminous life isnât predictable. It isnât tied up in a neat package. In the now-famous series of interviews Bill Moyers conducted with Joseph Campbell about the heroâs journey, Campbell talked about how unpredictable life is and how difficult it is to see what may happen in the future.2 In fact, life is confusing, and things donât always make sense. Campbell told a story about King Arthurâs knights searching for the Holy Grail, which was hidden in the middle of a dark forest. Each knight had to enter the forest in the darkest place for him, where there was no path. The reason for this was simple, Campbell said, because if you could actually see a path in front of you, it wasnât your path but that of someone who had gone before you.
Later in that interview series Campbell talked about what happens when we look back on our life. Thatâs where we begin to see how everything fits, and we make sense of the decisions we made.3 We say to ourselves, âOh, thatâs why it was important to move to Seattle,â or, âNow I see how lucky I was to meet Tom just when I did.â Looking back, we get a sense of continuity.
Imagine youâre stopping for a moment and turning around to look back on your own heroâs path. You see that all along it are strung beautiful round paper lanterns, the kind that people hang on trees during the summer. Each one casts a golden glow that illuminates a part of your trail. As you continue to look back, you see that whether the sky was a royal blue or gray and overcast, these lanterns shone nevertheless. Sometimes fog settled in, but you could still see the warm light from each globe. Now consider that each lantern represents a luminous moment that you designed and put in place. Wouldnât that be great to look back on? You could see without a doubt that indeed yours was a good life.
The Call to Luminosity
You deserve to live the life you were meant to live, and you have the energy to do it. Itâs time to focus that energy instead of wasting it. And by energy I mean your money, time, physical vitality, creativity, enjoyment, and relationships. All these are forms of energy that you and I can learn to focus toward what we truly want in life. We can master this energy or remain frustrated and in a perpetual bad mood.
Luminosity summons images of light and radiance. All of us want moments in which thereâs enough light that we can see clearly all the possibilities open before us. We want our eyes to see and our ears to hear what has always been there.
Luminosity is also about going toward the light, being in love with the light and not even worrying about getting away from the darkness. Iâve learned that whatever I try to get away from only follows me, nipping at my heels. Going toward the light gives more hope. It takes less energy than trying to get away from something â and itâs much more fun.
There, Iâve said it. Fun: the f-word. A friend once told me something like this: âI want to get enlightenment, but I donât want to be so heavy about it. This enlightenment stuff sounds so serious. Canât I just have a little fun?â (The answer is yes.)
It takes guts to turn your attention away from what you think is wrong with you, others, or your work environment â to turn from complaints to contribution. It takes daring to become focused on dreams instead of dilemmas. You could get worried that if you donât look at your shortcomings â or those of others â something bad will happen. You may be so used to looking at your problems and concerns that the thought of leaving them behind sends chills through you. Later on weâll see why this is so and give you a way to go beyond your worries as you travel on the road to luminosity.
But right now, just to begin, ask yourself, âWould it be all right with me if life got easier? More fun?â We might get suspicious of a question like that, wondering, âWhatâs the catch?â or âHow does this apply to my work?â Get used to it. Iâm going to ask you that same question a few times in this book.
The Difference between Happy Moments
and Luminous Moments
Luminous moments are different from happy moments. Yes, luminosity includes happiness. But as we define them here, luminous moments involve focused action.
Happy times look like this: I was eight, and my mom owned a bakery. On this particular day the bakers had made a three-foot tub full of dark bittersweet chocolate icing. They used about ten pounds of pure sweet butter and real vanilla. You could smell it all through the bakery. The trouble was, this batch was overcooked and too dark to use. There it sat on the kitchen floor, a tub of lukewarm dark chocolate icing with just the slightest pool of melted butter on top. It called to me as I stood over it. I looked up. Mom was watching, a smile twinkling in her eyes. As though she had read my mind, she said four words: âGo ahead, do it!â And I did. I plunged my arm down into the warm, dark, sweet chocolate. The icing oozed between my fingers. I drew my arm out of the soft icing and started to lick it off. My arm smelled like butter for two days.
But a luminous moment looks more like this: I was twelve. I had worked at the bakery and saved up $20. I caught the bus and went to a department store to buy my mom a Motherâs Day gift. I saw a gold-plated pin in the shape of a sheaf of wheat. It was $19.95. I plunked the money down, bought it, and gave it to my mom the next day. I was nervous because it was the first time I had ever gone out on my own to buy her something. What if she didnât like it? She opened the package, looked at the pin, and burst into a big smile. She told me it was perfect and how creative it was of me to give her something that reminded her of baking. My heart soared! I felt so proud.
Itâs now almost half a century later, and my mom has long since passed away. Burglars broke into my home many years ago and took almost everything my mother left me, all the great rings and jewelry she had bought over the years. All, that is, except for that gold-plated pin shaped like a sheaf of wheat. Itâs been with me through ups and downs over the years, and it always reminds me how I made my mom happy that day.
The difference between a happy moment and a luminous moment is this: in luminous moments you have taken action on something important to you. In the happy moment, I enjoyed that luscious warm fudge icing all over my arm. I was in the right place at the right time and knew from my momâs look and encouragement that she loved me. But in the luminous moment, I knew that my mom knew that I loved her. I had taken focused action to show my mom how precious she was to me. Luminous moments occur when you generate something important from inside yourself and make it real in the physical world. Bringing it to pass takes energy that you have to focus. It might even involve risk because you ...