PART ONE
TWILIGHT
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YOU LOOK GOOD ENOUGH TO EAT: LOVE, MADNESS, AND THE FOOD ANALOGY
George A. Dunn
There is always a bit of madness in loving. But there is also always a bit of reason in madness.
âFriedrich Nietzsche1
Edward Cullen is doomed. The new girl sitting next to him in biology class looks andâto make matters even worseâsmells good enough to eat. In fact, in the century or so heâs been stalking the Earth, Edward has never before inhaled a fragrance quite so intoxicating. His nostrils have in their delirium taken the rest of his brain hostage. His sanity is on its way to becoming a dim memory, along with all that gentlemanly self-restraint heâs worked so long and hard to cultivate. All he can think about is what heâd like to do with this girl once he gets her aloneâand how he can make that happen. Blinded and blindsided by this sudden upsurge of appetite, heâs able to regain control of himself just long enough to bolt out the door and drive to Alaska, where a couple of days of cool mountain air does the work of a long, cold shower, sobering him up and chilling him out.
Philosophy requires a fearless dedication to the truth, so letâs be completely honest with each other right here at the outset: Who among us canât relate to this experience? Not that your designs on that scrumptious cupcake seated next to you in biology class (or whatever class it was) were exactly the same as Edwardâs. Heaven forbid! But thereâs not a soul among us who doesnât have at least some appreciation of what this poor guy is going through. Who hasnât been ambushed by a desire that strikes with such abrupt force that it becomes nearly impossible to hide its presence, let alone to resist being yanked in whatever direction it wants us to go? Protest all you like, but I think you know exactly what Iâm talking about. But if you insist on denying that youâve ever been slapped silly by a sudden rush of desire, then the kindest thing I can say is that youâre probably not a very promising candidate for the study of philosophyâat least not according to the ancient Greek philosopher Plato (428-348 BCE), whom we shall be meeting shortly.
âSorry about the Food AnalogyââWhatâs Your Pleasure?
On first glance, Edwardâs experience seems to be something entirely unique to members of his species, since itâs the smell of Bella Swanâs blood that arouses him and thereâs nothing figurative about his desire to consume her. âSorry about the food analogy,â he says to Bella when, in his clumsy attempt to explain his boorish behavior toward her on the day they meet, he ends up comparing her to ice cream.2 Of course, for most of us this really would be no more than an analogy. The delectable eye candy sitting next to you in class wasnât really a cupcake, and you probably didnât literally want to take a bite out of the apple of your eye. But thereâs something a bit disingenuous about Edward calling his food reference an âanalogy,â since he really did want to make a meal of Bella.
Edwardâs experience isnât entirely strange to us, because erotic and romantic longings really do seem to share something in common with physical hunger. And who can doubt that this food analogyâthe way that a vampire feeding on his victim can serve as a metaphor for an amorous conquestâaccounts for a considerable part of the eroticism of vampire fiction? What else could it be? Thereâs nothing inherently sexy about being hundreds of years old (or even Edwardâs more tender age of only one hundred and eighteen) and always maintaining the temperature of a corpse. But there is something undeniably erotic and intimate about the way a vampire feeds, not to mention the seductive animal magnetism he exudes, through which he effortlessly charms his victims into surrendering their wills and baring their throats. Of course, in the Twilight saga, itâs Bella whoâs incessantly trying to wear down Edwardâs rock-ribbed resistance. But the Cullen boy is a peculiarly honorable bloodsucker.
In any case, it canât be an accident that the language of food offers such a rich and felicitous store of metaphors for describing our experience in the seemingly very different domain of sex and romance. No doubt this fact is in part because eating is one of lifeâs most intensely sensual pleasures. We delight in the appearance, aroma, and taste of our food. Our muscles engage in the agreeably sensuous activities of biting, chewing, and swallowing each tasty morsel. Once weâve reduced our food to a pulp and pushed it down the esophagus, our contented stomach repays us for the boon via brain boost, radiating a feeling of profound satisfaction to the rest of the body. Each step of the process brings its own distinctive form of pleasure, so itâs with good reason that eating, along with drinking, is closely associated with being merry. For newborns, both human and vampire, the sensual pleasure of feeding offers us our earliest experience of gratification, securing a place for eating as one of our principle paradigms of deep carnal joy. And by a happy coincidence, eating is also the principal activity through which the joyful pulse of lifeâs vitality is sustained. We eat in obedience to the commands of nature, and nature rewards our obedience by making eating a genuine pleasure. Our sexual appetite is like this, tooânatureâs need is our delight. In both hunger and erotic desire, the force of biology finds a powerful ally in the lure of pleasure.
Of course, the analogy isnât perfect. The activity of eating ends up destroying the object of our enjoymentâor at least putting an end to its existence as an independently existing entity by transforming it into part of our own flesh. Lovers, on the other hand, never literally become one flesh, however tightly they cling to each other. Nonetheless, the world is full of predatory amorists who exploit others in much the same way the rest of us gobble down our meals, showing as little regard for the welfare of their partners as the lion shows for the lamb.
But even if we follow the chivalrous example of Edwardâthe lion who fell in love with the lambâand recognize that our beloved has needs and interests of her own that set a limit to how far we can go in indulging our desires, it remains true that every form of sensual enjoyment resembles somewhat the pleasures of eating.3 Enjoyment is always a matter of âimbibingâ or being âfilledâ with sensations that are essentially private or solitary in nature, even when the source of enjoyment is a shared activity like lovemaking. Moreover, we can get so swept up in a flood of pleasure that nothing beyond our present enjoyment seems to matter. Even gentlemanly Edward has to admit that his craving for Bellaâs company is essentially selfish, motivated by a desire to feast on her beauty and fragrance, a voluptuous banquet for the sake of which heâs willing to put his beloved at mortal risk.4
âWhat I Knew Was Right . . . and What I Wantedâ
The cover of the first book of the Twilight saga depicts outstretched hands cupping a bright red apple, bringing to mind another famous connection between the alimentary and the amorous thatâs deeply embedded in Western consciousness. Most of us are familiar with the story of the Fall of Humanity found in Genesis, the first book of the Bible, which narrates how the first man and woman lost their original childlike innocence and were expelled from paradise as a result of disobeying Godâs command not to eat the fruit of âthe tree of the knowledge of good and evilâ (Genesis 2:17). The Bible, of course, never explicitly identifies the âforbidden fruitâ as an apple. But perhaps because apples figured so prominently in Greek mythology as catalysts of desire and discord, someone must have assumed that an apple also was the most likely culprit in the Genesis story, and the idea stuck.5 The Bible also never directly implicates lust as a factor in the Fall. But that didnât deter many early Christian theologians from insisting that the âknowledge of good and evilâ imparted by the forbidden fruit had something to do with carnal knowledge , an interpretation supported by Adam and Eveâs sudden discovery of their nakedness upon partaking of the fruit.6 Consequently, forbidden desire has been associated ever since with taking a big juicy bite out of an apple.
When medieval Christian theologians such as Thomas Aquinas (1224-1274) contemplated that apple, they believed it was alerting us to the dangers of what they called concupiscentia , or âconcupiscence.â That was their word for the perfectly natural and spontaneous movement of desire toward pleasurable things, like food and sex. Of course, thereâs nothing inherently bad about these objects of desire. In fact, Aquinas insisted they were necessary and good, butâand this is a crucial qualificationâonly as long as we seek them not solely for pleasure but rather for the sake of the purposes for which he believed God intended them, such as nourishing our bodies and reproducing the species. Allowed to operate outside the constraints of conscience and reason, concupiscent desires become tinder for sins like lust and gluttony. Aquinas classified concupiscence as a form of love, but distinguished it from friendly affection in that the object of concupiscence âis loved, not that any good may come to it, but that it may be possessed.â7 Our desire to eat is concupiscent since we are interested in only the nutrients and enjoyment we can take for ourselves. Erotic desires are concupiscent too, since they aim at our own pleasure.
Concupiscent desires are powerful, pleasurable, andâin the opinion of Aquinas and other Christian moralistsânothing but trouble when they come to dominate the personality. Not only do they incline us toward immoderate and harmful forms of self-indulgence, but when we start to view other people exclusively through the distorting lens of concupiscence, we end up reducing them to mere objects to be consumed or enjoyed. And thatâs pretty much how weâre viewed by most vampires outside the Cullen clan. âHappy Meals on legsâ is the description of human beings favored by Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayerâanother vampire partial to food analogies. 8 For a frightening picture of how Aquinas might have imagined pure, unbridled âconcupiscence on legs,â we need only consider the newborn vampires depicted in Eclipse. They are, as Edward puts it, â[b]loodthirsty, wild, out of control.â9 If these frenzied, amoral appetites run amok are what desire tends to become when left unsupervised by our better rational nature, then letâs man those embattled ramparts of reason.
Edward found himself teetering atop those ramparts one night in Bellaâs bedroom. Earlier that day he had discovered he had a potential rival in Mike Newton, and the resultant feelings of jealousy inflamed his desire for Bella to the point that breaking and entering seemed a reasonably good idea. That night he made his first of what were to become his nightly forays into Bellaâs bedroom to spy on his beloved while she slept. He later explained to Bella what was going through his head that first night: âI wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him.â10
We all know that it isnât Mike Newtonâor even someone very much like himâwho would have claimed Bellaâs heart if Edward hadnât come along. But however mistaken Edward may have been about his competition, his wrenching internal struggle was very real. Aquinas undoubtedly would have described it as a battle between concupiscence (âwhat I wantedâ) and conscience (âwhat I knew was rightâ). The tremendous power of concupiscence is demonstrated by the fact that hearing his name muttered by Bella in her sleep was all it took to persuade him to chuck conscience aside and go for the apple.
The Vampire Socrates
After all this talk about wanton appetites inducing us to do things that are stupid and wrong, weâre ready at last to make the acquaintance of Plato, one of the greatest philosophers of all time, to ponder the problem of desire. One of the big recurring themes of Platoâs philosophy was the phenomenon the Greeks knew as erĂ´s, a word with a meaning that overlaps to some extent with the Latin concupiscentia but carries an even stronger connotation of irrationality. ErĂ´s is the Greek word for passionate desire, typically, but not necessarily, sexual in nature and frequently associated with madness. For example, when the ancient Greek historian Thucydides (460-395 BCE) described the lust for the overseas empire that gripped the citizens of Athens when they set their sights on conquering the island of Sicily, he referred to it as their erĂ´s, suggesting that this excessive passion crippled their judgment and led directly to their disastrous defeat at the hands of the Spartans in the Peloponnesian war.11
We might compare the Athenianâs foolhardy expedition to anotherâand particularly foulâexpression of erĂ´s that we encounter in the Twilight saga: Jamesâs single-minded obsession with tracking and killing Bella, which also tempts him to engage in reckless behavior through which he courts his own ruin. Most often, erĂ´s referred to the passion of being in love or to intense carnal lust. But as we learn from the examples of Edward, Bella, Jacob Black, Leah Clearwater, and other frequently unhappy residents of Forks and La Push, even the seemingly more benign forms of erĂ´s can addle the mind and wreak havoc on the emotions.
No wonder, then, that some Greek ...