Part I
Exemplary conversion narratives 1
Lady Mary Carey
The manuscript writings of Lady Mary Carey (c.1609âc.1680), consisting of a conversion narrative, some meditations and poetry, all written between 1647 and 1657, are remarkable for their exploration of the relationship between her sinful, earthly body and her immortal soul. In introspective modes characteristic of Puritan writing, religious and bodily concerns are often set at odds. The bodyâs appetite for carnal pleasures was thought to tempt the soul from its spiritual path towards salvation, and during the process of conversion the body was often afflicted by various means that God used to mortify sin in his chosen people. In Careyâs conversion narrative, âA Dialogue betwixt the Soul, and the Bodyâ (1647), she noted in the margin that âin order to spiritual good the body often afflictedâ (14r). When she was eighteen years old, Carey believed that God visited a sickness upon her to prevent her from pursuing pleasures like gambling and dancing, and throughout her life since he had continued to visit bodily suffering on her in order to refine her soul. The dialogue between the voices of Soul and Body that she uses as the basis for her conversion narrative is indicative of the struggle believers like Carey faced when confronted with what they thought were severe punishments: she lost at least five of her children during the time she wrote her surviving work and experienced at least one miscarriage. When she was writing the âDialogueâ, Carey was expecting her fourth child, Robert, who died soon after birth (in 1650), and two years later so did another newborn boy, Peregrine.1 Despite these terrible losses, Carey wrote later in her meditations (between 1652 and 1657) that she trusted in Godâs divine plan and counted her blessings:
I had tenderly loving Parents, good Husbands, the last is so, & good was it for me, that I was Wife to the first; God hath given me lovely Children, Sons, & Daughters, 5 in Godâs Bosom, 2 yet with me; âtis best for me, & them, that those that died, died; âtis best for me, & them, that those that live, live; many were the Mercies of them that died; & (in some kind) more are the Mercies of these that live, & all the Mercies of them both were my Mercies. (99râv)
Carey consoles herself here that her children have gone to a better place, and that she has two children who have lived (Bethia, 1652/53â71, and Nathaniel, 1654/55â80?). Her conversion narrative, though written at least four years earlier than the meditations, depicts Body struggling to come to terms with losing such precious children, advised by Soul that âit is Godâs Will, to which submit not one Word; and do not only yield, but approve; God is wise, and knows it best; God is loving; and therefore did itâ (7v). In her poetry, too, Carey comes to the conclusion that God means her to exchange her children for greater knowledge of Jesus Christ: her son (âmy allâ), she pleads in her elegy on the death of Robert, could be exchanged with Godâs only son (âthy allâ).
âA Dialogue betwixt the Soul, and the Bodyâ combines two important genres that seventeenth-century women utilised: the conversion narrative, where writers recall and recount their turn towards God; and the motherâs legacy, intended for use in place of the mother if she died in childbirth. In preparation for her forthcoming labour, Carey writes that she wanted to record all her assurances of salvation so that under severe bodily pain, when she was in greatest danger from the temptations of Satan, she could accept Godâs will in all things, and face death happily. As Ralph Houlbrooke has noted, women could be said in some ways to have viewed childbirth âas a sort of rehearsal for the last actâ, and certainly there are many similarities between this text and deathbed testimonies.2 Satan also appears in Careyâs meditations; she records his accusations that she had given into him at times when she lacked Godâs presence (the voice of God in her last poem bears fruitful comparison with Satanâs voice), but she proves him wrong by supplying evidence of her assurances, thus dramatising a struggle akin to that of her childbed. Certainly her writings are meant as advisory texts, as well as a means of introspection. âA Dialogue betwixt the Soul, and the Bodyâ, in particular, is addressed to her second husband, George Payler, who was paymaster at the army garrison in Berwick and an officer of military organisation at the Tower of London. This and Careyâs avowal of the Westminster Shorter Catechism, part of an attempt by Parliament to reform the English Church from Charles Iâs Laudian innovations, identifies her as a Puritan and on the side of Parliament in the Civil Wars.3 Though Carey writes enthusiastically that God had made their minds, judgements, wills and âAims in Spiritualsâ (6r) one and the same, she hoped that her narrative would help her husband to accept Godâs will and continue on his own spiritual journey. Paylerâs own poem on the death of his son Robert is also written to advise and teach his spouse (whereas Careyâs poem on the same occasion focuses only on her relationship with God), showing that husband and wife helped each other in their spiritual duties, and supported each other in the knowledge that they must accept Godâs providence.
As well as prose writings, Carey favoured the elegy as a way of exploring the loss of her children and attempting to find consolation. A characteristic of seventeenth-century child-loss poetry was the expression of belief that an unhealthy, deformed or dead child was Godâs punishment for the sins of the parents, particularly the mother. As Pamela Hammons writes, the âintellectual, spiritual, and moral shortcoming of mothers were believed capable of replication in their offspringâs bodies and destiniesâ:4 in other words, the motherâs spiritual state could be mirrored by her childâs physical appearance. A connected medical belief concerned âmaternal imaginationâ, by which the emotions of the mother during the formation of a foetus could affect the childâs appearance. The midwife Jane Sharp described this belief in her midwifery manual:
The child in the Motherâs womb hath a soul of its own, yet it is a part of the mother until she be delivered, as a branch is part of a Tree while it grows there, and so the motherâs imagination makes an impression upon the child, but it must be a strong imagination at that very time when the forming faculty is at work or else it will not do, but since the child takes part of the motherâs life whilst he is in the womb, as the fruit doth of the tree, whatsoever moves the faculties of the motherâs soul may do the like in the child.5
Mothers, therefore, were held responsible for their children as soon as they were conceived, and their writings show them drawing on these ideas to express their grief and find consolation.
These cultural ideas give some sense of what Carey encountered when she miscarried a child, causing her to write her last and most famous poem, âUpon the Sight of my abortive Birth the 31st of December 1657â. She describes the child as âvoid of life, & featureâ (114r), or form, suggesting that the child had been born dead before it could develop limbs or, possibly, that its body had developed but was deformed. According to early modern medical thinking, miscarriages occurred because the embryo had not developed properly, causing, as Nicholas Culpeper writes, âthe exclusion of a child, not perfect nor living, before legitimate timeâ.6 He continues by writing that the appearance of an abortive birth altered according to how long the child had been nurtured inside the womb:
Some differences of Abortion are from the time and bigness of the child. For that which is cast out, is little and round, without distinction of members [limbs] at first, like a Grape. Sometimes as long as a finger, and members may be distinguished. And sometimes the child is almost perfect.7
Since Careyâs abortive birth was âfeaturelessâ, it is possible that hers was a very early miscarriage, like the one Culpeper describes above, and her poem interprets its appearance as a reflection of her own spiritual state. Asking God directly why he has punished her with such an experience, she has him berate her for her own âdeadnessâ and inactivity in spiritual duties: God says that she has presented him with âdead Fruitâ (115v), so he is repaying her with a dead child in order to encourage her to subdue her sin. Carey then ends the poem by asking God to enable her to be both spiritually and physi...