Being a Subject
To do justice to this question we need a conceptual story that reminds us of what kind of beings we are, what type of autonomy we seek and why it matters so much to us. It must be a story about what it means to be a subject. Which faculties lead us to experience ourselves as subjects – as opposed to objects, items, things or mere bodies?
Each of us is a centre of experience. It feels a certain way to be a human. Humans are corporeal beings with an internal perspective, an inner world. It has several dimensions. The most basic is that of physical sensation. It includes a grasp of the body's position and its movements, but also typical bodily sensations like desire, pleasure and pain, heat and cold, dizziness and disgust, lightness and heaviness. In addition, there are our sensory experiences: what we see, hear, smell, taste and touch. A further layer of experience is formed by feelings, such as joy and fear, or envy and jealousy, sorrow and melancholy. The pattern of our desires is closely bound up with this. What we desire expresses how we feel. And our desires can be read from what we imagine, from our fantasies and our daydreams. This whole set of experiences has a temporal dimension. It is embedded in memories and in a conception of future life with its hopes and expectations. All of this generates the mental picture we make of the world: what we think and believe about it, what we consider true and false, justified and unjustified, reasonable and unreasonable.
This is thus one of the meanings of being a subject: in that sense, to be a centre of experience or, as one could also say, a being with consciousness. Our behaviour develops out of this experience. There is involuntary behaviour which is pure movement: a twitch, a cramp, a blink. It can have an experienced internal side and thus be sensed behaviour, but it does not originate in this experience and is not its expression. Only when behaviour is the expression of an experience is it action. Those experiences that stand behind the action and express themselves through it are the motives of the action. I do something because I feel and desire something, because I remember or imagine something, because I have thought about and believe in something. When this is the case, I am the author of my action, I am a doer who develops his doing out of his experience. And the motives that guide me give my action its meaning.
We can verbalize the motives of our action. We can find words for our experiences and say out of which thoughts, desires and feelings we act. This way we can explain our action, both to others and to ourselves. We can tell stories about our motives that concern individual acts or longer phases of our action. We are beings that can narrate their lives in that sense. A subject, one could say, is a centre of narrative gravity. We are the ones who our motive stories are about. These stories are recollections, stories about present experience and stories about what we imagine our future to be; stories about where we come from, how we became what we are and what we intend. Through such stories a self-image develops, an image of how we see ourselves.
It belongs to our experience as subjects to discover that in a life there are many more thoughts, feelings, fantasies and desires than the exterior biography shows. And also more than the inner, conscious biography shows. Over time, we learn that there is a dimension of motives for our actions that lies in the dark, and that a subject's life can be concerned with becoming aware of these motives. Not that individuals need to be ceaselessly preoccupied with this. There might also be good reasons to leave some things in the dark, even forever. But it is the mark of subjects that they know about the existence of unconscious, hidden motives and about the possibility of inwardly expanding the radius of self-understanding.
The self-image that we have as subjects is not only an image of how we are, but also an idea of what we would like and ought to be. To our faculties as subjects belongs the capacity to deal critically with ourselves and to ask ourselves whether we are content with our actions and experiences, whether we approve or reject them. It belongs to the nature of subjects that they can experience a conflict between what they are and what they want to be, and that they can see themselves as failures. Subjects are therefore beings that are capable of internal censorship, capable of forbidding themselves actions, but also mere thoughts, desires, feelings and fantasies. By virtue of this ability, they are beings who can blame themselves. Subjects can live in a state of inner conflict, and they can ask themselves whether they can respect themselves for what they do and experience, or whether they must despise themselves for it.
It is the mark of a subject that she can question herself in this way, instead of merely drifting through life. And it does not end with the question. Subjects can not only look after themselves in a critical manner, but also tactically take charge of themselves and change themselves in their actions and experiences in a desired direction. As we are not just the victims of blindly flowing experience, but can evaluate ourselves from a reflective distance, it is possible for us to envisage a new way of thinking, wishing and feeling and to take steps towards such a transformation. Then we are doing something with ourselves and for ourselves. As one could say, we are working on our mental identity.
We now have a first, still sketchy, picture of what it means to be a subject. In the course of this book this image will become increasingly more detailed, richer and denser. The experiences we have with our dignity are intimately linked with the experiences we have as subjects. When our dignity is in danger, it is often because our lives as subjects are in danger. If we trace the individual threats to and defences of our dignity, we will automatically penetrate deeper and deeper into the experiences that belong to us as subjects.
Being an End in Itself
As subjects we do not want only to be used. We do not want to be mere means to an end, which others set and which is their end and not ours. We want, one could say, to be regarded and treated as ends in themselves. When we are not so treated, this is not just unpleasant. It is much more. We feel violated or even destroyed as subjects. When this happens, we experience it as an attempt to take away our dignity. To the extent to which our dignity is dependent on how others treat us, it is founded on the expectation, the claim and the right to be not only treated as a means to an end, but as ends in ourselves.
While travelling, I passed by a fun fair and saw something that I would not have believed to be possible: a dwarf-tossing competition. A strong man grabbed one of the small people and tossed him as far as possible on a soft, bouncy mat. The man who was being tossed wore padded protective clothing with handles and a helmet. The gawping crowd clapped and hooted at every throw. The furthest throw was almost four metres. I learned that the man who was being tossed had been at the world championship in dwarf-tossing. For this had really taken place: a world championship in throwing humans. After my return I discovered that this issue had preoccupied the highest courts. In France the Conseil d'Etat had banned the practice of dwarf-tossing, and the UN Human Rights Committee had dismissed an appeal against this decision. In both cases, the justification had been that human dignity has to be protected.
This was also my spontaneous reaction at the fun fair: you cannot do this to a human being. It violates his dignity. ‘Isn't this terrific?’, the man next to me exclaimed at a particularly far throw. ‘Repulsive’, I said, ‘intolerable!’ ‘But why’, the man responded in an irritated manner, ‘nobody forced him into this, he is getting paid and it's great fun!’ ‘It violates his dignity!’, I said angrily. It was strange to utter this solemn word in the midst of the hooting crowd – a bit like surfacing out of the water and gasping for breath. ‘Nonsense’, the man said as he turned to leave, ‘what is dignity anyway?’
Dwarf-tossing is like shot-putting or hammer throwing. Bodies are thrown and what matters is that they are thrown as far as possible. The only thing that is important about the shot and the hammer is that they are bodies – objects that have a mass and a weight. This is also the case with the dwarf who is tossed. He is treated as a mere body, as a thing. The moment he is being thrown, nothing else matters: that he is a human being who can also move independently; that he is a body with experience, for whom it feels a certain way to be grabbed and thrown; that in the process he has feelings like powerlessness, repugnance or fear; that he has desires, for example that this may end soon; that he might have his own views of the hooting crowd, about the whole nature of the event and about his fate as a small person. All of this is being blanked out by the throwers and the audience. It is not of interest, quasi forgotten. And now we have an initial explanation for the disgust one might feel at the event: the human who is being tossed is deprived of his dignity, because it is disregarded that he is also a subject. He is thereby reduced to a mere object, a thing, and in this objectification lies the loss of dignity.
Yet this explanation does not go far enough. If a fire breaks out in a cinema, everyone will try to make their way out without regard for others. They will push other visitors aside, knock them over and kick them. They will treat them like objects that are in the way, as if they were clearing a mass out of the way. During a mass panic, the individual no longer cares that others are also subjects with experiences like himself. This is cruel, but this is not the cruelty of stolen dignity. When in this scenario a tall person grabs a small person and tosses him away like an object in order to clear space, this is different from dwarf-tossing at the fun fair. In what sense?
There is a difference in situation, that is matched by a difference in motivation. The motivation of people trying to escape is blind panic which only leaves room for the one thought: getting out! The cruelty which reduces others to bodies that are in the way is not deliberate and tactical. It is the blind cruelty of the will to survive. ‘What else could I...