Part I
Receiving testimony
Chapter 1
Reestablishing the internal âThouâ in testimony of trauma1
Dori Laub
Introduction
The following chapter highlights the therapeutic aspects of the testimonial interventionâan intervention that is also used in oral history and in the judicial context. Specifically, we are dealing here with the video testimonies of severely traumatized Holocaust survivors.
In two out of the three interview excerpts cited in this chapter, I served as the interviewerâlistener. I was trying to promote a dialogic process between the survivor and myself and between the survivor and herself, in which her most severe traumatic experiences, perhaps for the first time in her life, were put into words. This chapter will repeatedly return to the special attributes of the dialogic process of trauma testimony.
The nature of traumatic experience
Philosophers, psychologists, psychiatrists, neuroscientists and writers have tried to convey the essence of massive psychic trauma. According to psychoanalyst Boulanger (2005), trauma âcollapsesâ the distinction between the external world and internal experience: âwhen the external world becomes a direct reflection of our most terrifying thoughts, feelings, fantasies and nightmares, reality testing is irrelevantâ (pp. 21â31). Cognitive functions, such as the reflective registration of external events and the observation of oneâs own responses to them, cease to operate under conditions of severe trauma. Tarantelli (2003) likens catastrophic psychic trauma to an explosion:
In so far as an explosion disintegrates whatever is in its epicenter, it cannot be perceived or experienced or thought for there is nothing left to do so. Another way of saying this is that there is an utter absence, a radical break in being, an instant in which nothing exists (p. 915).
Jean Amery (1980), himself a survivor of the Gestapo torture chambers and of Auschwitz, writes:
[B]ut only in torture does the transformation of the person into flesh become complete ⌠The tortured person is only a body and nothing else besides that ⌠The pain was what it was, beyond that there is nothing to say ⌠[It marks] the limit of language to communicate (p. 33).
All three writers indicate that it is the absence of mental experience that characterizes massive psychic trauma because the mind is unable to register, cognitively and emotionally, the traumatic events. The self, as the interpreter of the experience and the creator of meaning, thus ceases to function.
On the nature of traumatic memories
According to Golden (2009), âThe traumatic wound ⌠excludes linguistic representationâ (p. 82). â[It] outstrips discursive and representational resourcesâ (Golden, 2009, p. 5). Yet traumatized people report so-called traumatic memories. These memories are indelible, sensory, affective, imprinted fragments that lack narrative cohesion and agency. These imprints of visual, auditory, olfactory, kinesthetic and physical sensations and strong affect remain outside a narrative structure, outside a story, even outside experience as it is remembered.
They are not subject to assimilation or to evolutionary change through integration into the associative network. They remain discrete, retaining their magnetic power in their contradictory, detailed and persistent clarity and also in the concomitant dense, yet absorbing, opaqueness that enshrouds them. They are qualitatively different from ordinary memories because they can continue to exert an influence on unconscious cognitive and emotional processes many years after the original traumatic event.
Memories of extreme traumatization: theoretical considerations
I would like now to propose a phenomenological formulation of traumatic memory emanating from what is called in psychoanalysis âobject relations theory.â Holocaust traumaâand genocide trauma for that matterârefuses knowledge because at its very core lies the complete failure of the empathic human dyad. The executioner does not heed the victimâs plea for life; instead, he relentlessly proceeds with the execution. Human responsiveness came to be nonexistent in the death camps. A âThouâ responsive to oneâs basic needs no longer existed. Faith in the possibility of communication died; intrapsychically there was no longer a matrix of two people, a self and a resonating other. This despair of being able to communicate with others diminished the victimsâ ability to be in contact and in tune with themselves and to be able to register their own experience or reflect upon it.
Given that survivors of extreme traumatization experience a profound state of inner lonesomeness, it is necessary to explore the link between this traumatic state of lonelinessâof objectlessnessâand the absence of communicable thought. For traumatic sensation to be experienced as thought, it must undergo the process of symbolization. According to Melanie Klein (1930), it is ânot only [that] symbolism [comes] to be the foundation of all fantasy and sublimation, but more than that, it is the basis of the subjectâs relation to the outside world and to reality, in generalâ (p. 221). Therefore, to perceive, recognize or participate in reality, the process of symbolization needs to be in place. âSymbol formation,â according to Hannah Segal (1991), âgoverns the capacity to communicate, since all communication is made by means of symbolsâ (p. 395). She proceeds, âSymbols are needed in not only communication with the external world, but also in internal communication,â that is, with oneself (Segal, 1991, p. 395). âThe capacity to communicate with oneself by using symbols is, I think, the basis of verbal thinking, which is the capacity to communicate with oneself by means of wordsâ (Segal, 1991, p. 396). When the empathic other totally fails in the external world of the death camps, the internal, empathic âThou,â the means for self-dialogue, ceases to exist. The ongoing internal dialogue, the internal âIâ speaking to the internal âThou,â which allows for historicity, narrative and meaning to unfold, falls silent. Sensory impressions, no matter how powerful, remain fragments that do not coalesce. Thus, the two-part sequence consisting first, of the destruction of the internal âotherâ object and, second, of the failure of the process of symbolization through internal dialogue, leads to the absence of conscious experience and also to the absence of repressed memory. It is as though memory in its wider form becomes nonexistent, a state which very much fits with Van der Kolk, McFarlane and Weisaethâs description (1996) of traumatic memories as the return of âemotional and sensory states with little capacity for verbal representationâ (p. 296).
The above-described processes that promote the shutdown of the mental registering processes, the cessation of the dialogue with the internal âThouâ (and, ultimately, of symbolization and thought), lead to a certain absence, or rather erasure, of memory. Primo Levi (cited in Tarantelli, 2003) poignantly described this phenomenon in his account of the Musselmänner state that he witnessed in the death camps. The âabsence of any âtrace of thoughtââ (Levi, 1987, p. 96) â⌠[pointed to] a destruction of all mental activity that had a full individuality, subjectivity, or personal beingâ (Tarantelli, 2003, p. 917). Hence, the narration of this state from within becomes impossible.
Testimony as a relibidinization of the fragments
Testimony is a powerful, libido-driven process of putting fragments together, creating a whole, making such a whole a part of oneâs experiential landscape in a temporal, historical sequence, historicizing it, restoring the narrative flow and associatively linking it to other experiences and to the experiencing âI.â Testimony is a process of symbolizing the concrete so that the traumatic experience can become communicable to oneself and known and transmittable to an âother,â thus producing an experience that can be known, remembered, transmitted and forgotten.
According to psychoanalytic theory, an object is passionately yearned for and desperately needed to make this libidinally charged testimonial process possible. This object is the addressee, an intimate companion for the journey into yet-uncharted territoryâa totally present, listening âThou.â Such a listening âThouâ is the sine qua non, the indispensable condition for the dialogic process between the internal âIâ and the internal âThouâ to resume.
Let us turn now to the video testimony itself. To begin, the witness identifies herself by stating her name and the date and place of her birth. She is then invited to delve into early family and childhood memories. Personal experience and images are emphasized. The interviewer asks her to imagine sitting at a living-room table and opening an album of old faded photos; he asks her to describe what she sees. She is invited to view her own self-made movie that starts rolling in her mind and to relate what she sees. What she relates is immediate, personal and visual. The interviewer allows his own imagination to flow as he takes in the visual, the auditory and the kinesthetic, all that is transmitted in the testimony. The fine nuances in the tone of voice, body movement and posture and facial expressionâall of these are very important for the interviewer to take in. The interviewerâs own flow of associations complements the multimodal transmittals in the testimony and informs his interventions.
Finding the âThouâ in the testimonial relationship
Witnesses and listeners have a common goalâjointly to visit a lived experience of extremity, to step into the place in which neither of them had been before. Literally speaking, the witness has been there, but experientially she had been absent from it. Caruthâs concept (1996) of the âunclaimed experienceâ is very helpful here. At the moment the trauma occurred, the person who was affected was not there to experience it. She is quite aware of her absence, of having missed it, and feels compelled to return to it and at the same time terrified to come near it. As pointed out earlier, it is a place of utter aloneness. Therefore, the promise of a companionâlistener who will join her makes such a venture thinkable, perhaps even inviting; the hope is that she will experience a henceforth foreclosed moment of intense intimacy.
The companionâlistener echoes such feelings of anticipation, being aware at the same time of the responsibility she is taking onânot to flinch at whatever she hears or experiences, and to let nothing detract from her total presence in, and to, the moment. Her goal is to facilitate what the witness anticipates, which is an encounter with herself, a homecoming to a most profound personal truth, a foray into a territory she had either fearfully and carefully avoided or allowed herself to experience only on a separate, parallel track, as though it belonged to someone else.
In order to integrate the traumatic fragments and turn them into real knowledge, the survivor needs to locate the fervently yearned-for dialogic âThouâ within herself. She can do so by finding a trustworthy, passionate and totally present companionâlistener in whom she can temporarily anchor that internal âThou.â That listener has not only to be totally present, but also ahead of the survivor in the place of trauma, patiently waiting for her there. She has to assist her actively by providing a holding frame of time, space and sequence, and she must actively intervene when the survivor is overwhelmed by her feelings, at a loss for words and faltering because she cannot sustain the effort or wants to flee the terror, grief and pain.
It is this form of passionately involved, active listening that the interviewer offers to the survivor through the process of the video testimony. The listening sets in motion the âcoming togetherâ of the disjointed traumatic fragments into a hitherto unknown, cohesive narrative, which often surprises the survivor herself. By hearing herself she realizes that, at the outset, she had not known all that she knew. Undoubtedly, other audiences besides the current companionâlistenerâpast, present and future audiencesâare implicitly, although most likely unconsciously, addressed in the video testimony, whereby it becomes a historical event in itself. It is through the restoration of her internal âThouâ that the survivor is able to tell the story of her experienceâboth to herself and to society at large.
Testimony and psychoanalysis
Testimony is a meeting place for the witnessing and repair of trauma-induced fragmented memories and psychic disruption. The testimonial intervention responds to, and addresses, that which has been deeply wounded and not found an opportunity to heal in the trauma survivor. A psychoanalytic understanding of the interviewer and interviewee relationship during the testimonial intervention not only vastly contributes to our understanding of the traumatic damage but also informs us about the healing processes that need to be set in motion to repair it.
The uniqueness of the testimonial intervention lies in the fact that there is always an event, an experienceâalthough it may cover a lifetimeâthat is known to be there, even if it has hitherto not been consciously formulated. Thus it is information that has yet to be recorded and brought to an addresseeâto a party interested in receiving it. Testimony is therefore an urgent transmittal of information. There is an unrelenting internal pressure to convey it, as well as an external readiness and eagerness to receive it.
When such transmittal has been accomplished, the survivor no longer is, or feels, alone with the inexpressible extreme experience. She is less helplessly prey to its devastating impact. The internal cauldron of sensations and affects has been put into the frame of a sequential narrative; it can now be remembered, transmitted and forgotten. However, such narrative is never complete, and highly charged blank spots of the inexpressible (almost unimaginable) experience persist, exerting their magnetic power on the survivor, who feels compelled endlessly to revisit them while at the same time constantly fleeing their proximity.
These intense, affect-laden voids of memoryâwhich, to begin with, can obliterate the traumatic experience in its entiretyâconstitute the power source that drives testimony and exerts the pressure for its deliverance. This mechanism holds true for a broad range of experiences of extreme trauma. In personal observations, I have found that cancer survivors, when feeling safe in the company of other survivors, are similarly driven to âtell their storyâ of their encounters with death. A group of chronically hospitalized âpsychoticâ Holocaust survivors, interviewed in Israel in recent years, experienced the same internal pressure to bear witness (Laub, 2005; Strous et al., 2005; Kaplan and Laub, 2009). Unfortunately, their capacity to symbolize, free associate, reflect and verbalize has been so profoundly damaged by the chronicity of their condition (lasting for decades), their social isolation and their somatic treatments (insulin shock, ECT and psychotropic medication), that all they were able to create was a constricted, static and fragmented narrative.
The goal of traditional psychoanalysis, on the other hand, is to allow for the emergence of the ...