Part I
CHAPTER 1 Ordinary People
February 2000
The letter begging for lifesaving help lay untouched for weeks. Yet it stayed in our thoughts and disturbed us. We walked past it daily, unsure what to do with it. We felt its grim horror. It seemed that Margaretâs family had felt that also; the letter had lived in shadowy corners of their lives for decades.
The letterâs unanswered questions tugged at us. What should we do with it? Who were these Viennese Jews? Did the family escape? In 1939, the Nazi noose was tightening around Jews under the control of the Reich, but my natural skepticism poked at me: Could this letter have been some kind of hoax? Did Mrs. Clarence Berger answer the letter?
Our busy lives pulled us in other directions. After several weeks, Sidney seemed ready to put the letter behind us, maybe find a museum that would want it.
Inexplicably, the letter struck me harder than it hit him, jolting my sense of stability. Our family histories are vastly different. My husbandâs family had lived for centuries in western Russia, now Belarus, but his grandparents immigrated to America around 1900, leaving Russian repression for a better life. All of his family who remained thereâaunts, uncles, cousins, great-grandparentsâdisappeared in the Holocaust. When Sidney was growing up, his parents experienced and occasionally talked about antisemitism in their own lives, but they rarely mentioned their murdered family. When he asked about those missing family members, all that anyone would say was, âThey were lost in the war.â
Ancestors of mine, in contrast, had come to America with the Pilgrims. Others fought in the Revolution. One distant relative, Hugh Hall, had explored the West with Lewis and Clark. Later generations, including my parents, spoke angrily about the influx of immigrants into âour country.â No one mentioned the Holocaust. When Sidney and I first discussed marrying, his family welcomed me, but my parents objected, and the discord, laden with long-held antisemitism, was painful. I hadnât been raised with antisemitic talk, but the animus was there, only gradually to be replaced by a warm, loving bond between Sidney and my parents.
Over the years, Sidney and I built a bridge between our two worlds, Jewish and Christian, but it was shaky. We had experienced both the beautiful and the frigid, clannish, excluding aspects of each religion. Insiders and outsiders, we flinched at hurtful remarks that flew in both directions: âKike.â âGoy.â âChosen people.â âYou have to choose.â
Did we have to choose? We didnât think so, and we couldnât. We loved the common core of both religions, as we loved each other. In recent years, I had thought weâd resolved our distress around this conflicted part of our lives. We participated in both religions and taught both to our children. But Alfred Bergerâs letter churned up those dormant emotions. In 1930s Vienna there had been no safe, accepting, middle ground like we found in America. The letter stirred my old worries that division and hatred among different groups could flare anywhere, anytime.
I wanted to interview Margaret, and Sidney agreed to tell her about my interest. I hoped to find and write an inspiring, reassuring âGreatest Generationâ story of a family that had risked helping a desperate stranger. But I understood that the Los Angeles Bergers might have questioned the letterâs authenticity, worried about financial entanglements, and ignored the pleaâas my own family probably would have.
I met twice with Margaret and her daughter Lynn, a nurse. White-haired and in her mid-eighties, Margaret repeated to me the brief account she had given Sidney. She knew almost nothing about the letter. She explained several times that her uncle had shown it to her only once, in the mid-1950s, at the time when Clarence had sponsored Margaret herself for immigration to the U.S. He had said very little about the letter, then put it away. When I asked whether her aunt and uncle had sent a reply, Margaret equivocated. She said that they did not; later she said that they did but had not received a reply. Margaret was certain there had been no family connection. Her uncleâs family had emigrated from Germany in the mid-1800s and Anglicized their name from Bereger. Her Aunt Bea had emigrated from Canada. Her family was not Jewish, she said several times, as if that explained everything.
We chatted for several hours about her aunt and uncle. Theyâd had no children. He and Bea had endured lean years during the Depression but managed to build a secure working-class life. Bea had been a homemaker. Clarence owned a car repair shop in the Watts neighborhood of South Los Angeles, then worked for a company that repossessed cars, mostly from the black ghetto emerging around his home. He had developed strong racial prejudices, Margaret admitted.
The fact that both Bea and her niece Margaret were immigrants to the United States added an intriguing angle to the story. But I had come to a dead end in our conversation. I backed up and asked Margaret and Lynn why they thought their family had kept this letter for so long.
Lynn answered that when her mother cut off the envelopeâs stamps and gave them to a church fundraising project, Lynn had urged Margaret to save the letter.
Margaretâs tone was soft as she answered, slowly and thoughtfully. She couldnât speak for her aunt and uncle, she said, but for herself, she would take the letter from its various storage places to read from time to time. âIâve always wanted to know what happened to them. Each time I read the letter, I felt the plea. We have no idea what those people went through, how desperate they were. The letter should be some place where it will bring to mind what happened back then.â
Lynn listened quietly during most of the conversation, but when her mother spoke so openly, she burst out, âI knew my aunt and uncle well. I do not believe they would have tried to help those people. I hope they made it. Iâm ashamed that our family did not help them.â
Here, from both of them, was the solid ground Iâd sought, the connection that bound Margaret, Lynn, possibly their aunt and uncle, and me to the letter. More powerful than curiosity or a sense of responsibility for preserving history was the pull of the human heart: we cared what had happened to these terrified strangers in Wien, Germany.
As I gathered my recorder and notes preparing to leave, Margaret suggested that others might know more. She handed me contact information, decades old, for Clarenceâs and Beaâs families. Surprisingly, she then went to a back room and emerged, her arms full of rolled-up papers. If I could find Clarenceâs relatives, she wanted me to give them these family documentsâmarriage certificates from the 1800s, newspaper clippings of births and deaths, military records of Clarenceâs army service in Europe during World War I.
Leaving their home, I accepted that I would not find a straightforward, inspirational tale. This familyâs emotions were tangled. More than half a century after Clarence and Bea Berger had folded this letter and put it aside, I had set off a defensive reaction from Margaret and an apology from Lynn. I felt that I stood at the edge of a dark world that I wasnât sure I wanted to enter.
Over the next week as I rethought that interview, unresolved questions loomed in my mind and drove me back to the story. I began investigating the slim possibility that the California Bergers had responded to Alfred and Hedwig. Within a few weeks I had contacted four of Clarence and Bea Bergerâs relatives in California and Canada, but they had never heard of the letter. Disappointed, I accepted the likelihood that the Los Angeles Bergers had not responded, and I filed the letter away with other intriguing dangling story ideas.
Lifeâs currents drew Sidney and me into in our busy routinesâhis rheumatology practice, my journalism, our family. But even as years passed, I remained deeply unsettled by the plea to strangers in America. Sidney and I sometimes talked about the uncomfortable feelings it provoked. He began telling me stories Iâd never heardâabout growing up in a small Mississippi town where his was the only Jewish family, owners of a small store and motel. Antisemitism was as pervasive there as the cotton fields that stretched to the horizon. Other children made him pay a nickel to play with them. In school, in that conservative community, religion came up often. When a student or teacher talked about the Jews killing Jesus, he would wait for the inevitable âSidney is Jewish!â as everyone turned to stare at him. Later, dating had been a problem; some parents refused to let him see their daughter. I had known something about his struggles, but even now, these stories came out reluctantly.
My own suburban Seattle childhood had been so different: upper middle class and Protestant; my father an attorney, my mother a homemaker. I was aware of only two or three Jewish students in my high school of sixteen hundred students. Sidneyâs ability to manage the obstacles of his youth impressed me. Over the years, he had made close, lifelong friends in that town, but the imprint that he was different had cut deeply. Later he had been accepted at Washington Universityâs highly regarded medical school, but he had been careful also to apply to Thomas Jefferson Universityâs medical school, known to accept Jews. We speculated about whether antisemitism had played a role in the Los Angeles Bergersâ apparent decision not to answer the letter.
A level of unease that Sidney did not seem to experience about the letter jarred my carefully balanced world. The letterâs recipients could have been my family as I grew upâand its senders could have been my current family. I understood the gaping chasm between them. My parents had belonged to clubs that admitted only WASPs, White Anglo-Saxon Protestants. When I talked about the letter with my parents, my fatherâwho had by now grown close to Sidney, his Jewish son-in-lawâmade a startling admission. He revealed that before my grandparents married, my grandfather had researched my grandmotherâs family, the Mangolds, to confirm that she had no Jewish heritage. I learned, too, that my motherâs father, a bank president, had decided not to nominate a respected businessman to a corporate board that he chaired simply because that personâs family were Italian immigrants. My mother had grown up near New York City, where, she informed me, Jews were âvery clannish.â It was extremely unlikely that, in 1939, my family would have welcomed any immigrant.
A friend asked me if I felt guilty about this family background. She compared my discomfort to âwhite guilt.â Iâd had to think about her question, but then I laughed and said I knew that guilt was significant for some religions and some people, but I didnât find it useful. I believed guilt turns a person inward. It seems a detached, often debilitating response. For me, concepts of personal responsibility and justice are more powerful. This might seem a fuzzy distinction, but I thought not, and, yes, I felt a responsibility.
Othersâ reactions to the letter also surprised me. Most people who read it expressed pity for Alfred and Hedwig and scorned âthose Nazis.â Not one considered Americansâ unrealized potential for rescuing trapped Jewsâperhaps by identifying a church or synagogue that might help even one family. The message I heard was this: ordinary Americans had no connection to the Holocaust.
Sidney and I continued to talk about the letter. We admitted that an affidavit of support was a significant responsibility. We doubted whether we would have made such a commitment for a stranger. I had thought of myself as a compassionate person, but never delved into why I assumed so. Fissures developed in my self-image.
On the other end of the letter were the Jewish Bergers and their âsituation.â Extreme antisemitism had never affected me, but the message of this letter rang out loud and clear: If Sidney and I had lived in Vienna in 1939, we too would have been running for our lives. We too would have been writing letters: âI beg you⌠help us.â
CHAPTER 2 The Search Begins
March 2004
Adding to my warring emotions about Alfred Bergerâs letter, I was a journalist, and I was curious. A writer writes in large part as self-discovery, and there was much in this letter that disturbed and compelled me. After wrestling with my priorities for several years, I left my work for the Register-Guard to begin sleuthing seriously. I didnât know, then, where I was heading, but I was moving. Alfred and Hedwig might have sent multiple letters pleading for help. Did anyone answer? Did they escape?
The first steps in my quest for answers began with Clarence Berger. Could he have met members of Alfred Bergerâs family during his World War I military service? Looking over his army record, I saw that Private Clarence Berger had served in northeast France, across the Belgian border from the battlefield where young Corporal Adolf Hitler had fought and been injured. In that war Jews were not banned from military service. In fact they had a significant presence in the German army. I was disappointed to learn that Berger had been assigned to an American base hospital for his very brief military stint during the warâs final days. I could see no obvious connection to any Jews in Europe.
I found no common thread between Clarence and the Viennese Bergers during that time, but as I read about the period, I realized that for both of those two young soldiersâClarence Berger and Adolf Hitlerâthat time had been formative. As Private Berger sailed home to victorious, prospering America, Corporal Hitler restarted civilian life in a decimated, humiliated nation. Hitler dismissed the harsh reality that Germanyâs economic collapse, long string of defeats, and disintegrating morale had forced its surrender. Despite the service of thousands of Jews in the German and Austrian militaries, he blamed Jews for accepting, and thereby causing, Germanyâs defeat. He adopted the German generalsâ face-saving, stab-in-the-back rhetoric, blaming their surrender on a lack of popular support. For Hitler, Jews became the scapegoat vindicating the Volk, the German people. He made it his mission, his Kampf, to take revenge on Jews. For Hitler, defeat had thwarted Germanyâs imperial dreams but not destroyed them.
I was appalled to realize that Hitlerâs vision of a self-proclaimed superior race had been, in different forms, commonly accepted worldwide. Hitler and Clarence Berger both lived in cultures of hardening racial and ethnic stereotypes and prejudice, cloaked in the widely accepted pseudo-science of eugenics. Scientists and leaders from Churchill and Roosevelt in the West to Emperor Hirohito in Japan espoused eugenic policies that promoted ranking and âpurifyingâ races. Religious leaders preached eugenics from their pulpits and on national radio. Thousands of Americans deemed deficient or of inferior racial mix were sterilized. The Ku Klux Klan, targeting Jews, blacks, and Catholics as enemies of the âwhite race,â swelled to record size. Lynching, sometimes as a public spectacle, increased across the country. Hitler admired the racial violence in the United States and used it to defend his own warped and brutal vision.
That racially charged understanding of the world undoubtedly filtered into the homes of the Los Angeles Bergersâand also of my family. Most citizens supported the restrictive immigration laws passed in the 1920s. Those new laws put numbers to the vision of a racial hierarchy, slashing total immigration and setting quotas restricting immigrants from Southern and Eastern Europe, Asia, and Africa. The world kept its âhuddled massesââwords inscribed on the Statue of Libertyâs baseâas Lady Liberty turned her cold copper back on lines of hopeful immigrants.
I learned, too, how Holocaust study had evolved. Immediately after World War II no one knew the mag...