ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Grateful acknowledgements to the editors of the journals where these poems first appeared:
85 South Journal // âMourning Doveâ
AGNI // âOde to Adam Ripponâs Buttâ
American Poetry Review // âOde to the Pitcher Plant,â âThis Way to the Egressâ (as âThe Egressâ), âThe Language in Questionâ [He has a mouth on him.], âThe Language in Questionâ [When I called you a beluga whale,] and âThe Language in Questionâ [Defying gravity after all]
Boston Review // âOde to the Corpse Flowerâ
Crazyhorse // âSelf-Portrait as a Man-Made Diamondâ
Foglifter // âMutual Monogamyâ
Four Way Review // âA Toast to the Destruction of Sodom and Gomorraâ
Four Way Review // âReasons for Abolishing Iceâ (as âReasons for Distrusting Iceâ)
Gulf Coast // âA Fatherâs Portrait in Styrofoamâ
Ithaca Lit // âQueso de patasâ (as âLa GĂŒeraâ)
Kenyon Review // âThe Great Glass Closet,â âWarrior Song,â and âLe darĂa mis pulmonesâ
Lambda Literary // âConversations with My Fatherâ
The Missouri Review // âAnti-Ode to the Man-O-Warâ and âKeeping Homeâ
New England Review // âOde to the Peacockâ
Newfound // âTo the Unborn Siblingâ
Nimrod International // âGay Epithalamiumâ
Palette Poetry // âHuitlacocheâ
[PANK] // âOn the Slight Cruelty of Mothersâ
Plume // âNonmonogamyâ
Poet Lore // âThe Memory Jarâ
Poets.org (Poem-a-Day) // âBliss Point or What Can Best Be Achieved by Cheeseâ
Prairie Schooner // âHeroin with an Eâ
Puerto del Sol // âThe Language in Questionâ [The language in question is criminal]
RHINO // âThe Darkest Lashesâ
Tinderbox Poetry Journal // âEye of the Hurricaneâ and âSilver City, New Mexicoâ West Branch Wired // âHeart Conceitâ
Thank you to the editors of the following venues that gave these poems another home:
200 New Mexico Poems // âThe Memory Jarâ
BreakBeat Poets Vol. 4: LatiNEXT // âThe Language in Questionâ [The language in question is criminal] and âOde to the Peacockâ
Best New Poets 2016 // âLe darĂa mis pulmonesâ
Best New Poets 2018 // âOde to the Corpse Flowerâ
Foglifter (blog) // âHuitlacocheâ
Los hijos de Whitman // âA Fatherâs Portrait in Styrofoamâ (as âRetrato de padre en poliestirenoâ)
The Slowdown // âBliss Point of What Can Best Be Achieved by Cheeseâ
Verse Daily // âHeroin with an Eâ
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Thank you: to the remarkable folks at Milkweed Editions (with special thanks to Lee Oglesby and Daniel Slager).
Thank you: all of the folks involved in the National Poetry Series, for this opportunity.
Thank you: Sally Wen Mao, Eduardo C. Corral, and Danez Smith, for lending me your kind words.
Thank you: BenjamĂn GarcĂa (not me, the artist featured on the cover), for gracing my book with your work, and Mary Austin Speaker, for bringing it all together.
Thank you: all of the hardworking folks at the following institutions that provided me space, guidance, funding, community, and other forms of support I hope to one day pay forward:
CantoMundo, The Frost Place, Lambda Literary, The Palm Beach Poetry Festival, Bread Loaf Writerâs Conference, Taos Sumer Writerâs Conference, The National Latino Writerâs Conference, the National Hispanic Cultural Center, the University of New Mexico, and Cornell University.
Thank you: Trillium Health for allowing me to learn so much about myself by teaching others. Without these experiences, this book would not be possible. Thank you especially: Dr. Valenti, Michael Lecker, Kristen MacKay, Julie Ritzler, and Emily Smith.
Thank you to all of my MFA instructors: Alice Fulton, for your keen eyes. Lyrae Van Clief-Stefanon, for showing me how to âeat the fish and spit out the bones.â Kenneth McLane, for your unwavering encouragement. Stephanie Vaughn and Helena MarĂa Viramontes, thank you for being such strong advocates for your students.
Thank you for your support: Maudelle Driskell, Patrick Donnelly, Gabrielle Calvocoressi, Joy Harjo, Amy Beeder, Valerie MartĂnez, Jack Trujillo, Ross Gay, Yona Harvey, Martha Collins, MartĂn Espada, Diane Thiel, Martha Rhodes, Edward Hirsch, Rigoberto GonzĂĄlez, Javier Zamora, and Natalie Scenters-Zapico.
Thank you: Dana Levin, for being a force of good. For believing in me when I couldnât.
Thank you: Mrs. Price, Stephanie Hobbs, Yvette Hines, Michael PĂ©rez, and James Raines for fanning a small fire. And to you, Brenda Huerta, Lynda Le, Lisa Marie RamĂrez, for standing with me.
Thank you to my community of writers: Tacey Atsitty, Elizabeth Lindsey Rogers, Tanaya Winder, Joy Priest, Justin Jannise, and ___________________ (for the name I have surely forgotten). All my love to the Ironclad Medusa Collective: Mandy Gutmann-Gonzalez, Liza Flum, and Emily Oliver. A special thank you to the folks who put up with my annoying excitement at a new draft, often my first readers: Alex Chertok, Christopher Phelps, Suzanne Richardson, and Casandra Lopez.
Thank you: to all the women, queer, Latinx, trans, black, marginalized writers whose voices have guided me to mine, and whose work has made mine possible.
Thank you: to all of my family, chosen and not. Thank you especially to Mario, for always watching out for me. Thank you Miguel, for surviving with me. Thank you to my dad, for trying. Thank you to Jorge, Ernesto, Chantel, Marlene, Darlene, Perfecto. Thank you, Uncle Andy, for always encouraging us to create. Thank you, Bessettes, for being so welcoming.
Thank you: Nana, for your strength/wisdom/love. For randomly saying to an eleven-year-old boy, âRicky Martin is gay and thatâs okay.â
Thank you: Nick, for adding music to my life.
AmĂĄ: gracias por todo, quĂ© suerte la mĂa.
Thrown in the Throat is dedicated to anyone who has lived in a closet. It sucks. Iâm sorry. Iâm here, in this book, with you.
And you, reader, thank you for opening this book.
Lynda Le photography
BENJAMIN GARCIA was a 2019 Lambda Literary Fellow, the 2017 Latinx Scholar at the Frost Place, and a 2018 CantoMundo Fellow at the Palm Beach Poetry Festival. His work has appeared in American Poetry Review, Best New Poets 2018, Crazyhorse, Kenyon Review, the Missouri Review, and New England Review. Garcia received his MFA from Cornell University and currently works as a sexual health and harm reduction educator in the Finger Lakes region of New York.
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