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- English
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From a junkieaddicted to methamphetaminesto a federaljudge, MaryBethO'Connor'smemoir shares her inspiring journey from rock bottom to resilience as she forged a personal path to recovery from trauma and addiction. Silver Award, 2023 Nonfiction Book Awards Searing, unsettling, and ultimately triumphant, Judge O'Connor's debut memoir takes readers on a wild ride through the rock-bottom underbelly of intravenous drug addiction to the hallowed halls of justice where she rose to the pinnacle of success as a federal judge. With wit and unabashed honesty, O'Connor shares her remarkable three-phase journey: the abuse and trauma that drove her to teenage drug use, the chaos that ensued from her addiction; and how she developed a personalized secular recovery plan that led to twenty-nine years of sobriety. Her story proves any addict can recover and anyone can build a productive and happy life, no matter how low the bottom or how deep the pain. Within a week of being born, O'Connor was dropped off at a convent. When she was brought into her home, her mother focused on her own needs and desires, ignoring her young child. When she was nine, her stepfather kicked her in the stomach for spilling milk, beat her when she didn't clean a plate to his satisfaction, and molested her when she was twelve. A few months later, with her first sip of Boone's Farm Strawberry Hill wine, her life changed. She felt euphoric and relaxed. So she got drunk as often as possible, adding pot, then pills, then acid. At sixteen, she found her drug of choice--methamphetamine. With her first snort, she experienced true joy for the first time. When this high was no longer sufficient, she turned to the needle and shot up. During the next sixteen years, she descended into a severe meth addiction, working her way down the corporate ladder, destroying relationships, and shattering her physical and emotional well-being. At thirty-two, she entered rehab, where she was ordered to submit to the 12-steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. As an atheist, turning her will and her life over to a higher power was not an option, and she refused to agree she was powerless. Told to comply or fail, she bravely created a new path that combined ideas from multiple programs and even incorporated some AA concepts. Clean and sober now for more nearly three decades, she is proof that anyone can find their sober self, their best self, no matter how far they have fallen. Along with her inspiring story, she offers a comprehensive checklist of questions for readers to ask themselves as they take the brave steps toward recovery, offering a powerful blueprint for personal change.
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Table of contents
- Cover
- Title Page
- Foreword
- Chapter 1: My First Shot
- Chapter 2: Conception
- Chapter 3: First Kidnapping
- Chapter 4: Carving Knife
- Chapter 5: Goldfish
- Chapter 6: School
- Chapter 7: Allan
- Chapter 8: Bordentown
- Chapter 9: Shift Work
- Chapter 10: Protecting the Siblings
- Chapter 11: Moving Out
- Chapter 12: Molestations
- Chapter 13: Alcohol
- Chapter 14: Pot
- Chapter 15: Sex
- Chapter 16: Pills
- Chapter 17: Acid
- Chapter 18: First Snort
- Chapter 19: Addiction for Sure
- Chapter 20: Science of Addiction
- Chapter 21: Arrested
- Chapter 22: Promiscuity
- Chapter 23: College and Two Muggings
- Chapter 24: Yet Another Kidnapping
- Chapter 25: Martin
- Chapter 26: Northern California
- Chapter 27: Speed Again
- Chapter 28: Law School
- Chapter 29: Doc
- Chapter 30: Down the Corporate Ladder
- Chapter 31: Recovery Begins
- Chapter 32: Chrysalis
- Chapter 33: Atheist Challenges
- Chapter 34: NA Year One
- Chapter 35: Secular Year One
- Chapter 36: Cindy
- Chapter 37: Recovery Year Two
- Chapter 38: Mom
- Chapter 39: Recovery Year Three
- Chapter 40: Professional Success
- Chapter 41: Gina
- Chapter 42: Conclusion
- Recovery Guidelines
- Recovery Checklist
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Copyright