CHAPTER 1
THE SECULAR PILGRIM
OR, THE HERE WITHOUT THE HEREAFTER
SAMUEL PORTER PUTNAM WAS âBRED IN BLOOD AND BONEâ in the orthodoxy of New Englandâs old Congregational order. His father, Rufus Austin Putnam, was a Harvard graduate, class of 1822, who spent his entire career in the parish ministry. The wandering son recollected his steady fatherâhe ânever yielded one iota of his orthodox convictionsââwith almost formulaic images of severity. Rufus had been as austere and unloving as the Father God he extolled: âHe seemed a kind of grand shadow in my childhood. I do not remember that there was ever a flash of real sympathy between us.â The scattered farmers of Chichester, New Hampshire, would gather each Sabbath to hear the patriarch preach his undiluted Calvinism: âAll were fellow-travelers to eternity, and heaven was the goal,â Samuel recalled. âOnly a few, however, expected to get there, and the terrors of hell-fire were expatiated upon with fear and trembling.â Decades afterward, Putnam expressed only bitterness toward the long Sabbath services of his childhood and the haunting fright of his fatherâs sermons: âMany a night I awoke crying with terror,â scared that his prayers for a ânew heartâ would come to naught and that he was among the damned. To a small boy, in that tiny church under his fatherâs care, Protestant orthodoxy had felt inescapable and overpowering. If there were any village atheists in this New Hampshire crossroads, the pastorâs son never met them: âTo be an Infidel at that time, in that place, was an almost unheard-of monstrosity.â1
FIGURE 1. Samuel Porter Putnam, from Samuel P. Putnam, 400 Years of Freethought (New York: Truth Seeker Co., 1894), plate at p. 518. Authorâs Collection
In penning My Religious Experience (1891), Putnam imagined his life story as a Puritan counternarrative, a testimonial antitype. To be able to give a credible account of regeneration was at the heart of his evangelical Calvinist upbringing; he had heard about the marks of genuine conversion âall the years of my childhood.â But, when it came time to relate his own experience, he selfconsciously plotted a reverse pilgrimage from the one his father had projected for him. Among the few books besides the Bible that the young Putnam remembered being explicitly encouraged to read was John Bunyanâs classic allegory, The Pilgrimâs Progress (1678). Bunyanâs Christianâa model Puritan saintâanxiously traverses a treacherous, narrow, temptation-laden path to get to the Celestial City. Among the distractions Christian encounters is Atheist who, scoffing at the dreary journey the pilgrim has undertaken, has stopped looking for Mount Zion and is heading back to the City of Destruction. Bunyanâs saint, of course, remains true to his faith and quickly moves past Atheist, whose only remaining god is this world. In narrating his religious experience, Putnam effectively rewrote that archetypal Protestant narrative from Atheistâs viewpoint. No longer a sojourner making his way in the light of eternity, Putnam became an itinerant freethinker, âa confirmed Materialist and Atheist,â and a paradigmatic American secularist. His was an earthbound pilgrimage, not a celestial one. Putnamâs self-chosen sobriquetââthe Secular Pilgrimââmade that Puritan antithesis unmistakable.2
Putnam saw his âpassing from the heart of orthodoxy to Freethoughtâ as a liberating progression, but that hardly made it a straightforward process. It was, as Putnam acknowledged, âa varied journey,â not a linear march from religious authority to secular enlightenment, but an unsteady dance with his Protestant inheritance. In hindsight, the end point of his countervailing pilgrimage into atheism may have looked foregone, but it unfolded in multiple stagesâwith at least two switchbacks into the faith and three separate stints in Congregational and Unitarian ministries. For a long time, Putnam was not sure whether he wanted to extricate himself from Christianity entirely or instead to reimagine it on liberal Protestant terms; even his split from evangelical Calvinism never looked so much like a neat divorce as a family psychodrama. Having haltingly removed himself from the pulpitâs long shadow, he would try out a series of public reinventions: as a customs official, a novelist, a traveling lecturer, an editor, and a historian. Around one self-transformation, however, he built an elaborate secretâhis momentary boldness as a free lover. All narratives are unfaithful, but Putnamâs relation of his religious experience proved doubly so. He studiously hid the sexual implications of his infidelity as well as the vulnerabilities of his secular identity behind a facade of atheistic assurance and finality.3
To say that Putnamâs secular pilgrimage was paradigmatic warrants some specification. The snaking route by which he relinquished his evangelical Calvinism for atheistic materialism involved all the major conduits of secularismâs formal articulation: (1) liberalizing religious movements that pushed within and then beyond ProtestantismâUnitarianism and the Free Religious Association were key institutionalized expressions; (2) organized forms of freethinking activismâthe National Liberal League and American Secular Union stood out; and (3) expanding media platforms to spread the secularist messageâcoast-to-coast lecture circuits and successful weekly journals, including the Index and the Truth Seeker, were critical. Putnam was a wayfarer through all of these religious fluctuations and irreligious developments. âWhen ⊠I think of the seminary, and orthodox pulpit, and Liberal ministry, and the Secular pilgrimages, and the immense theological and metaphysical spaces I have traversed,â Putnam remarked on a roving lecture tour in 1886, âI feel about a million years of age. It has been a round-about journey, during which God, heaven, and hell have disappeared like so many sparks, and only the earth remains.â That could have been the epitaph for the secular pilgrimage Putnam embodied and exemplified: only the earth remained. The empyrean horizon of the hereafter dimmed to vanishing in the fleshy immediacy of the here-and-now. And yet Putnamâs journey also disclosed the very fragility of that disappearanceâhow much work was required to keep the celestial from reinserting itself into his own allegory of secularismâs triumph.4
Putnam recalled his mother, Frances, more fondly than he did his father. She was âmore companionable,â more âopen to the sunlight and beauty of this world.â The big meals Frances prepared for Sunday evenings marked the reentry of some bodily delight after a full day at the meetinghouse; apart from a little whittling on the sly between the morning and afternoon sermons, Putnam considered his motherâs Sabbath fare the dayâs only consolation. Not that she was anything less than a faithful churchgoer, the proper helpmeet for her husbandâs ministry, but Samuel saw in her a greater ease with earthly enjoyments, tender emotions, and mundane responsibilities. The son recalled Monday washdays, for example, as glittering and happy by comparison to Sabbath observances; his mother presided over the duties in which âthings seemed realâ and his father over the errands that seemed impalpable. Putnam here traded on a series of familiar gender oppositions in which his father was cerebral and remote and his mother corporeal and sociable, but his observations were nonetheless suggestive. His mother was âa good cook,â and, late in life, Putnam was ready to set down those Sunday meals as his first taste of a secular pilgrimageâa gustatory indication, within his strict Sabbatarian upbringing, of how freeing it would be to have religious obligations give way to fleshly appetites.5
Putnamâs debt to his father also remained substantial, far more so than the son cared to admit. All the jeremiads about diminished clerical authority notwithstanding, the Congregational ministry remained an esteemed learned profession in antebellum New England. Rufus Putnamâs vocation depended on serious study and substantial intellectual training, and he had a library fit to undergird his callingâs scholarly, literary, and apologetic demands. As a youth, Samuel delved into his fatherâs books for hours on end. A miscellany of theology, literature, and history, the collection belied Putnamâs flat depiction of his fatherâs blinkered dogmatism. Among the books the son found, for example, were histories of ancient Greece that left him agape at the glories of Athens (as opposed to Jerusalem). He discovered as well the works of William Ellery Channing, the champion of New Englandâs liberal Christian vanguard, the herald of both Unitarianism and the wider Transcendentalist ferment of Ralph Waldo Emerson and company. The father was by no means one of Channingâs acolytes, but, as a learned minister, he had to be well versed in the theological debates that were then agitating the Congregational churches in order to shore up his own evangelical Calvinism. The son, by contrast, took Channingâs sermons as a breath of fresh air; they filled him âwith a strange feeling of relief.â In the âtop loft of the big old parsonage,â the son read against the grain of his fatherâs orthodoxy and bubbled with a youthful enthusiasm for more. Once he had his hands on Shakespeare, for example, the Bible seemed so âvastly inferior ⊠in wealth of thought and life.â His fatherâs library, Putnam reminisced decades later, âwas the nearest to heaven I ever got in my childhood.â6
By his mid-to-late teens, when Putnam was at Pembroke Academy prepping for his 1858 matriculation at Dartmouth College, his reading had turned decisively to Romantic poetry. He became fixated, above all, on Percy Bysshe Shelley, a poet notorious for his heterodoxy (Shelley had been expelled from Oxford for authoring a pamphlet entitled The Necessity of Atheism): âI was saturated with his genius,â Putnam effused. He described Shelley as âmy Bible and my religionâ; he claimed to have experienced a ânew birthâ through Shelleyâs âbrilliant revival of the Pagan and Greek spirit.â It was, of course, the opposite of the conversion for which his parents had long been prayingâanti-Christian, pantheistic, if not atheistic, in its vivid rebellion. Once at Dartmouth, Putnam relished his Promethean revolt all the more and saw his irreligion as part of a heady adventure. The lingering âorthodox influencesâ at the collegeâchapel prayers and professorial admonitionsâleft him entirely untouched; he was blithe about the Bibleâs irrelevance to his new life. Dreamy and impulsive, with Shelley as his guiding spirit, Putnam was sure that âthe bands of the Puritan faith were brokenâ and that he would ânever be anything else but an Atheist.â7
Thirty-some years later Putnam would look back with embarrassment on his âunreal and fantastic college lifeâ and the âsentimental Infidelityâ that had seized him: âMy unbelief was the romance of sentiment.â He felt, in hindsight, as if he had been a Transcendentalist caricature, gasping at sunsets and starry nights and listening to the melodies of forests and fields. âThey who are Infidels as I was at college, merely through the emotions, are not always able to stand the onslaught of the churches,â he admitted, âfor anything built upon emotion is apt to be swept away by emotion.â He had not been schooled in Enlightenment infidelityâin Hume, Voltaire, or Paineâbut instead had âcome out of Christianityâ much as Ralph Waldo Emerson had, on a counter-Enlightenment âwave of feeling.â The problem, as Putnam ultimately came to see it, was that his romantic pantheism still valued religious feeling and soulful epiphany, and, in that, it was âtoo much like sentimental Christianity.â It had taken the fifty-something infidel a very long time to see his collegiate mistake for what it wasâthat âreligious feeling, as feeling, is wrongââbut the seriousness of that intervening intellectual struggle made him no less forgiving of his youthful naĂŻvetĂ©. âThe last superstition of the human mind,â the mature Putnam somberly averred, âis the superstition that religion in itself is a good thing.â The retention of transcendental aspiration, in whatever guise, was what ultimately needed to be dissolved.8
The grizzled atheist of 1890 had it in for the callow infidel of 1860 because of what happened next. The Civil War broke out in 1861, and the idyll Putnam had been living was swiftly blown apart. Leaving Dartmouth his junior year without graduating, he enlisted as a private in the Union Army. His father had been a staunch reformerâactive in temperance, missionary, and anti-slavery societiesâand the son, even in his religious estrangement, knew intimately the strenuous demands of the New England conscience. Samuel went off to war with exalted purpose and high enthusiasmâto fight for âabsolute principle,â to put an end to slavery, to save the nation. He served first in the Fourth New York Heavy Artillery before being promoted in early 1864 to captain in the Twentieth U.S. Colored Infantry, a post he held until the end of the war. Camp life and the battlefield, especially âmarching and counter-marching for days and weeksâ in the Shenandoah Valley, came close to destroying him. âIt is well enough to talk about inward strength and self-reliance,â he observed, but those shibboleths made no sense of the absolute dependency upon the circumstances of army life that he now felt. The warâs âprison-houseâ of dull routine and horrific violence left Putnam with one strangely Christian verity intact: âWe cannot live upon what we are in ourselves.â9
On one forced march toward Washington, Putnam was overtaken by fever, hunger, thirst, and blinding pain. Suddenly, he found his âwhole lifeâs historyâ flashing through his mind âwith astonishing distinctness,â as if in that moment he were drowning. And that is when it happenedâwhen the âsentimental Infidelityâ of his college days proved no bar against the vast onrushing of devout emotion:
Home came before me with its sweet scenes, and mingled with the pictures the teachings I had received from father and mother; the milder aspect of religion, not the wrath of God or the fires of hell, but the love of JesusâŠ. With overwhelming power sounded the appeal I had so often heard: âSurrender to Jesus.â I was looking at the cross shining against an ineffable halo. There was no fear in my emotions. It was simply attractionâŠ. Suddenly out of my weakness, my suffering, the pain, the weariness, and the despair, my heart cried out, âI surrender!â There was no reserve.
Even thirty years later, when he was once again an atheist, Putnam remained in awe of this visionary episode, his battlefield surrender to Jesus. In a twinkling he had been saved; he had been transformed: âThat one can pass in a moment from darkness to light, from the deepest misery to the brightest joy, by a belief in Jesus, has been a fact in my own life.â What to make of that factâwhat interpretation to give this experienceâabsorbed him for the remainder of his days. That he ultimately settled on ânatural causesâ to explain this epiphany did not make the transformation any âless real.â The fruits of the experience were, in this case, as tangible as a Monday washday.10
Putnamâs surrender to Jesus reconciled him to his childhood faith and dramatically reoriented his life aspirations. After he left the Union Army in June 1865, he decided to follow in the vocational footsteps of his father, and he headed off to Chicago Theological Seminary to train for the Congregational ministry. He went as an evangelical Calvinist much in the mold, he said, of âthe theology of my parents.â While his new birth had given his faith an emotional imperative, those warmhearted feelings were necessarily filtered through all the catechesis of his upbringing. Doctrine very much shaped experienceâas was evident when Putnam reflected on the theological underpinnings of his own conversion: âSo far as the phenomenon of the ânew birthâ was concerned,â he concluded, âthe theologians were right. It came about just as they said it would.â Putnam went to seminary having made the standards of evangelical Calvinist piety and learning very much his own. He led with the heart perhaps, but he talked up as well the intellectual delights of the professionâthe âleisure and positionâ it would afford him to âlearn all there is to learn.â The other professions, he insisted, required too much specialized knowledge; the ministerâs calling was a summons instead to âuniversal inquiryâ into âall philosophy, all poetry, all art, all history.â His freethinking companions of the 1880s and 1890s might wonder why âany man of intelligenceâ would choose to enter the Christian ministry, but Putnam would never issue an apology for âthe ideal ministryâ he had imagined for himself in the wake of his wartime experience.11
That the reality would fall well short of the ideal was surely a given. Putnam found theological study corrosive to his religious affections; the seminaryâs âintellectual gymnasticsâ seemed to him anything but universal. They were, rather, trivial, the equivalent of counting angels on pinheads or distinguishing âbetwixt twe...