THINGS THAT ARE TRUE
SOUTHERN-FRIED SEX KITTEN
Britney Spears is the most famous person Iâve ever interviewed. She was also the weirdest. I assume this is not a coincidence.
The main thing I remember about this interview is that I spent (what seemed like) twelve thousand years waiting for her photo shoot to end. There was minor chaos during the shoot, becauseâat the last minuteâBritney decided she did not want to be photographed pantless, and that specific pantless image was (in truth) the main reason Esquire wanted to do a story on her. They needed a pantless Britney on the cover of their magazine. Her refusal created an intense dichotomy among her handlers: Britneyâs family members didnât want her to do anything overtly sexy, but her publicity team (whom she later fired) only wanted her to do things that were overtly sexy. She eventually agreed with her publicist. The singular upside to the photo shoot was the cookies; someone was responsible for providing Britney with warm chocolate chip cookies at all times, and they were fucking awesome.
After I spent my time with Spears, people kept asking me, âWhat is she really like?â My answer was usually, âI donât know, and I donât think she does, either.â And thatâs not sarcasm; I honestly believe Britney Spears was so insulated from the public (and so exhaustively governed by the people trying to control her image) that she became unable to differentiate between (a) the person who was famous and (b) the person she actually was. I suspect this is why she kept making so many strange decisions in the wake of this interview (i.e., getting married in Las Vegas to someone she barely liked, wearing T-shirts that said things like âMILF in Training,â constantly being photographed barefoot in public, etc.). Her management team directed so much emphasis toward turning her into an unsophisticated semi-redneck that she now has no idea what is normal and what is marketing. I suppose her life is exciting, but I suspect itâs a pretty terrible way to live; I donât think she has any idea whatâs really happening to her.
That said, I did notice that her Southern accent always seemed to mysteriously disappear whenever she became annoyed with my questions. Maybe sheâs the blond Machiavelli.
Because the photos that ran with this story were pretty hot, Esquire cut about seven hundred words out of my profile to create more space for the pictures. This is the original draft.
BENDING SPOONS WITH BRITNEY SPEARS (NOVEMBER 2003)
Twenty feet away from me, Britney Spears is pantless. Her sculpted hair makes her look like Marilyn Monroe on a date with DiMaggio, assuming theyâre going to Manhattanâs finest pantless restaurant. Sheâs wearing a sweater that probably costs more than my parentsâ house, and her white heels add five inches to her five-foot-four pantless frame. Oh, and did I mention sheâs pantless? Sheâs not wearing any pants.
This is a hard detail to ignore.
This is a hard detail to ignore because the number of men who have seen a pantless Britney belong to a highly select fraternity: itâs Justin Timberlake, her gynecologist, the photographer whoâs doing this particular photo shoot, and (maybe) the frontman for a fourth-rate rap-metal outfit from Jacksonville, Florida. Thatâs more or less everybody.1 Andâperhaps stupidlyâI actually thought I was about to rush this semi-pathetic frat; I honestly believed the reason I was invited to this Manhattan photo shoot was to glimpse Britneyâs vagina and write about its cultural significance. Somehow, that seemed like the only logical explanation as to why Britneyâs naked ass was being unleashed on the cover of this magazine; this whole affair must be an aggressive, self-conscious reinvention. I mean, why else would I have been invited here? Why else would Spears have just released the (ahem) ânewsâ that she lost her virginity at the age of eighteen (a story that surfaced only thirty-six hours before this very photo session)? Isnât this how the modern media operates? Isnât everything wholly overt?
Actually, no.
Britneyâs secret garden will not be seen this afternoon, or at least not seen by me. All her pictures are ultimately shot behind a fifteen-foot-high opaque partition, and nary a heterosexual man is allowed behind its wall. Apparently, the reason I am here is to be reminded that the essence of Britney Spearsâs rawest sexuality is something I will never see, even though I know itâs there. This is why I am a metaphor for America, and this is also why Britney Spears is a metaphor for the American Dream. Culturally, there is nothing more trenchant than the fact that Britney Spears will never give it up, even though she already has.
Over the next ninety minutes, I will sit on a couch next to an ostensibly fully clothed Britney and ask her a battery of questions. She will not really answer any of them. Interviewing Britney Spears is like conducting a deposition hearing with Bill Clinton: regardless of the evidence, she does not waiver. âWhy do you dress so provocatively?â I ask. She says she doesnât dress provocatively. âBut look what youâre wearing right now,â I say, and I have a point, because I ask this while looking at three inches of her inner thigh, her entire abdomen, and enough cleavage to choke a musk ox. âThis is just a shirt and a skirt,â she responds. I ask her questions about her iconography, and she acts as though she has no idea what the word iconography even means. It is not that Britney Spears denies that she is a sexual icon, or that she disagrees with the assertion that she embodies the âmadonna/whoreâ dichotomy more than any human in history, or that she feels her success says nothing about what our society fantasizes about. She doesnât disagree with any of that stuff, because she swears she has never even thought about it. Not even once. When I ask her to theorize about why American men are so fascinated with the concept of the wet-hot virgin, she legitimately acts as if it is the first time anyone has ever brought that query to her attention.
âThatâs just a weird question,â she says. âI donât even want to think about that. Thatâs strange, and I donât think about things like that, and I donât want to think about things like that. Why should I? I donât have to deal with those people. Iâm concerned with the kids out there. Iâm concerned with the next generation of people. Iâm not worried about some guy whoâs a perv and wants to meet a freaking virgin.â
And suddenly, something becomes painfully clear: either Britney Spears is the least self-aware person Iâve ever met, or sheâs way, way savvier than I shall ever be.
Or maybe both.
Britney smells excellent. She smells like fruit (kiwi in particular). Like many celebrities, she seems smaller in real life than she appears on television, but Spears also looks a little harderâsometimes brittle, sometimes fragile. As I ask her questions, I can tell she isnât comfortable (at one point she gets up and walks away, but stops after five steps and returns to apologize). And the more I badger her, the more I find myself feeling sorry for dragging her through this process. For whatever the reason, I really want to love this person.
Compared to the depletion of the ozone layer or the war in Liberia, I concede that the existence of Britney Spears is light-years beyond trivial. But if youâre remotely interested in the cylinders that drive pop culture, itâs hard to overestimate her significance. She is not so much a person as she is an idea, and the idea is this: you can want everything, so long as you get nothing. The Western world has always been fixated with the eroticism of purity; that was how Brooke Shields sold Calvin Kleins, and that was how Annette Funicello sold the beach. But no one has ever packaged that schism like Britney Spears. She is the naughtiest good girl of all time. However, this philosophical chasm is not what makes her important; the chasm merely makes her rich. What makes Spears different is her abject unwillingness to recognize that this paradox exists at all. She never winks, she never cracks, and she never relents from her abject naĂŻvetĂ©.
I realize this does not seem possible; it did not seem possible to me, either. But this is the crux of her genius. Over and over and over again, I interrogate Spears about the motivations behind her career arc, starting with the first video she ever made, â⊠Baby One More Time.â Arguably the last transcendent clip MTV ever aired, the sexual overtones of â⊠Baby One More Timeâ seem almost stupidly symbolic. Yet when I tell this to Britney, she finds the suggestion ridiculous.
âI was wearing a freaking Catholic school girlâs outfit!â she exclaims, which is (of course) exactly why everyone else in the universe views it as the hyperdriven exploitation of an unabashed taboo. But there is no subtext in Britney World. âI was just dancing and doing what I love. To me, thatâs truly sexy. In so many videos these days, you see girls with their bras on, and theyâre just hoochie mamas. Men donât like that! Well, maybe some men doâthe kind of men Iâm not attracted to. But real people just want to see someone having a good time. They want to see someone shine.â
This is what makes Britney so different: she refuses to deconstruct herself. That falls in stark contrast with the previous generation of blond icons, most notably Madonna (who makes it clear that she controls every extension of her existence) and Pam Anderson (who refuses to take her own Barbie Doll bombast seriously). Madonna would never claim an outfit was merely âa skirt and a shirt.â Pam would never deny that her stardom is founded on strangers wanting to sleep with her. Both of those women know exactly what theyâre doing, and they want you to realize that, too. But Spears wants everything to look like an accident, and this is crucial. If Britney were to forfeit anythingâif she were to even casually admit that she occasionally uses her body as a commercial weaponâall of this would be over. She would immediately become like everybody else. But this will never happen. What keeps Britney perfectâwhat makes Britney perfectâis that she can produce a video where people lick the sweat off her body (as they did in 2001âs âIâm a Slave 4 Uâ) and still effortlessly insist the song has no relationship to sex whatsoever. (âItâs just about being a slave to the music,â she tells me.) On the day of our interview, Britney took another photograph for this magazine wearing only panties and pearls, and she pulled down the elastic of her underwear with her thumbs; if she would have pulled two inches more, Esquire would have become Hustler. But that reality does not affect her reality, which is that this picture has nothing to do with sex.
- Britney: Havenât you ever seen girls on the covers of magazines before? Did you see the J-Lo cover? She was wearing a bikini. Did you see the cover with Cameron Diaz on it?
- CK: Yes I did. And why do you think those women did those photo shoots?
- Britney: Because itâs the freaking cover of Esquire magazine! Why not? You get to look beautiful. Itâs not that deep.
- CK: So why exactly do you think the magazine puts women like that on its cover?
- Britney: I donât know. Maybe because those people are pretty and appealing, and they work their asses off, and they believe in themselves.
- CK: Do you honestly believe that?
- Britney: Well, some people might say itâs just to make money off of them and to sell magazines. But another reasonâa better reason, and the one I chooseâis that they do it to inspire people.
Britney is like the little kid who freaks out Keanu Reeves in The Matrix: You say you want to bend a spoon? Well, the first thing you need to realize is that there is no spoon.
Iâm not supposed to ask Britney about Justin Timberlake. This rule is made very clear to me the moment I arrive at the photo shoot. Granted, everyone knows that Spears and the former âN Sync member used to live together, and everyone knows about their breakup, and everyone knows they (evidently) had sex when Spears was eighteen. But her handlers still request that I donât ask any questions about their relationship. When I eventually ask Spears about this anyway, her response is extraordinarily innocuous. âThe bottom lineâand I hate talking about this, but whateverâis that we were both too young to be that serious with each other.â However, she does say that the alleged postbreakup âdance-offâ at the L.A. club Lounge never happened, and she admits that she and Justin donât speak anymore, even though she considers him a âcreative genius.â
Viewed retrospectively, thereâs no doubt the Justin-Britney romance helped Timberlakeâs career more than hersâespecially since Spears always insisted she was a virgin, even when they were living together. Optimistic thirteen-year-old girls could imagine Justin as the ultimate gentleman, perfectly content to keep his paws to himself while the foxiest girl on the planet sat around the house in her underwear, sucking on Popsicles and telling him to wait until she was ready. They were, in a sense, Virgin Royalty: super-rich, ĂŒber-clean pop stars who epitomized just how wonderful teenage Americans could still be.
This is why it was so jarring to hear Fred Durst on The Howard Stern Show in February, graphically discussing his alleged sexual dalliances with Spears. Her encounter with the Limp Bizkit vocalistâregardless of its truthâpublicly cemented Spearsâs fall from grace; Durst is universally perceived as rockâs sleaziest baboon. Yet the moment Britney âexplainsâ what happened, the gravity of the situation deflates. Here again, Spearsâs persona becomes weirdly Clintonesque: deny, deny, deny⊠and then classify everything as old news.
âThat was my fault for hanging out with people like that,â she says of Durst. âFred was a very great guy. He was a nice guy. And at the time he was trying to come on to me, I wasnât in the right frame of mind to have a relationship with anybody. So maybe I did hurt his ego, and [going on the radio] was his way of dealing with that. But I learned my lesson. And at the time, I was kind of confused, because my tour had just ended. Me and my girlfriends went out one night, and I was feeling like a free bird. But I really donât want to talk about this.â
I have no idea what those last two statements are supposed to mean; either she obviously slept with him, or she obviously didnât. The odds are 50â50. And this is a balance Britney either (a) consciously strives for, or (b) sustains without even trying. ClichĂ© as it may sound, she is truly all things to all people: a twelve-year-old girl thinks sheâs a hero; that girlâs older brother thinks sheâs a stripper; that older brotherâs girlfriend thinks sheâs an example of why women hate themselves; that girlfriendâs father secretly wishes his own twelve-year-old daughter would invite Britney over for a slumber party. As long as she never dictates her characterâas long as Spears never overtly says âThis is who I amââeveryone gets to inject their own meaning. Subconsciously, we all get to rebrand Britney Spears.
âThe public knows when someone is being honest,â she says. âThe people know whatâs real. This might be a weird analogy, but itâs like watching Friends on the TV. You just get what those people are talking about. Itâs funny to you, and youâre drawn into them.â
Here again, we see the brilliance of Britney: on the surface, this statement is insane. Anyone who watches Friends would never argue itâs successful because of its authenticity, nor would it seem like those characters have conversations that reflect any kind of tangible normalcy.2 But every single week, twenty million people watch Friends. They see something in Chandler Bing and Phoebe Buffay that makes them happy. And what those twenty million people see is something that Britney seesâand perhaps Britney understandsâin a way that most of us do not.
âHad I not went into music,â she tells me, âI probably would have gone to college and became a schoolteacher. That was my dream, because ...