THE
METAMORPHOSIS I
One morning, upon awakening from agitated dreams, Gregor Samsa found himself, in his bed, transformed into a monstrous vermin. He lay on his hard, armorlike back, and when lifting his head slightly, he could view his brown, vaulted belly partitioned by arching ridges, while on top of it, the blanket, about to slide off altogether, could barely hold. His many legs, wretchedly thin compared with his overall girth, danced helplessly before his eyes.
āWhatās happened to me?ā he wondered. It was no dream. His room, a normal if somewhat tiny human room, lay quietly between the four familiar walls. Above the table, on which a line of fabric samples had been unpacked and spread out (Samsa was a traveling salesman), hung the picture that he had recently clipped from an illustrated magazine and inserted in a pretty gilt frame. The picture showed a lady sitting there upright, bedizened in a fur hat and fur boa, with her entire forearm vanishing inside a heavy fur muff that she held out toward the viewer.
Gregorās eyes then focused on the window, and the dismal weatherāraindrops could be heard splattering on the metal ledgeāmade him feel quite melancholy.
āWhat if I slept a little more and forgot all about this nonsense,ā he thought. But his idea was impossible to carry out, for while he was accustomed to sleeping on his right side, his current state prevented him from getting into that position. No matter how forcefully he attempted to wrench himself over on his right side, he kept rocking back into his supine state. He must have tried it a hundred times, closing his eyes to avoid having to look at those wriggling legs, and he gave up only when he started feeling a mild, dull ache in his side such as he had never felt before.
āOh, God,ā he thought, āwhat a strenuous profession Iāve picked! Day in, day out on the road. Itās a lot more stressful than the work in the home office, and along with everything else I also have to put up with these agonies of travelingāworrying about making trains, having bad, irregular meals, meeting new people all the time, but never forming any lasting friendships that mellow into anything intimate. To hell with it all!ā
Feeling a slight itch on his belly, he slowly squirmed along on his back toward the bedpost in order to raise his head more easily. Upon locating the itchy place, which was dotted with lots of tiny white specks that he could not fathom, he tried to touch the area with one of his legs, but promptly withdrew it, for the contact sent icy shudders through his body.
He slipped back into his former position.
āGetting up so early all the time,ā he thought, āmakes you totally stupid. A man has to have his sleep. Other traveling salesmen live like harem women. For instance, whenever I return to the hotel during the morning to write up my orders, those men are still having breakfast. Just let me try that with my boss; Iād be kicked out on the spot. And anyway, who knows, that might be very good for me. If I werenāt holding back because of my parents, I would have given notice long ago, I would have marched straight up to the boss and told him off from the bottom of my heart. He would have toppled from his desk! Besides, itās so peculiar the way he seats himself on it and talks down to the employees from his great height, and we also have to get right up close because heās so hard of hearing. Well, I havenāt abandoned all hope; once Iāve saved enough to pay off my parentsā debt to himāthat should take another five or six yearsāIāll go through with it no matter what. Iāll make a big, clean break! But for now, Iāve got to get up, my train is leaving at five A.M.ā
And he glanced at the alarm clock ticking on the wardrobe. āGod Almighty!ā he thought. It was six-thirty, and the hands of the clock were calmly inching forward, it was even past the half hour, it was almost a quarter to. Could the alarm have failed to go off? From the bed, you could see that it was correctly set at four oāclock; it must have gone off. Yes, but was it possible to sleep peacefully through that furniture-quaking jangle? Well, fine, he had not slept peacefully, though probably all the more soundly. But what should he do now? The next train would be leaving at seven; and to catch it, he would have to rush like mad, and the samples werenāt packed up yet, and he felt anything but fresh or sprightly. And even if he did catch the train, there would be no avoiding the bossās fulminations, for the errand boy must have waited at the five A.M. train and long since reported Gregorās failure to show up. The boy was the directorās creature, spineless and mindless. Now what if Gregor reported sick? But that would be extremely embarrassing and suspect, for throughout his five years with the firm he had never been sick even once. The boss was bound to come over with the medical-plan doctor, upbraid the parents about their lazy son, and cut off all objections by referring to the doctor, for whom everybody in the world was in the best of health but work-shy. And besides, would the doctor be all that wrong in this case? Aside from his drowsiness, which was really superfluous after his long sleep, Gregor actually felt fine and was even ravenous.
As he speedily turned all these things over in his mind, but could not resolve to get out of bedāthe alarm clock was just striking a quarter to sevenāthere was a cautious rap on the door near the top end of his bed.
āGregor,ā a voice calledāit was his motherāāitās a quarter to seven. Didnāt you have a train to catch?ā
The gentle voice! Gregor was shocked to hear his own response; it was unmistakably his earlier voice, but with a painful and insuppressible squeal blending in as if from below, virtually leaving words in their full clarity for just a moment, only to garble them in their resonance, so that you could not tell whether you had heard right. Gregor had meant to reply in detail and explain everything, but, under the circumstances, he limited himself to saying, āYes, yes, thank you, Mother, Iām getting up.ā
Because of the wooden door, the change in Gregorās voice was probably not audible on the other side, for the mother was put at ease by his reassurance and she shuffled away. However, their brief exchange had made the rest of the family realize that Gregor, unexpectedly, was still at home, and the father was already at one side door, knocking weakly though with his fist: āGregor, Gregor,ā he called, āwhatās wrong?ā And after a short pause, he admonished him again, though in a deeper voice, āGregor! Gregor!ā
At the other side door, however, the sister plaintively murmured, āGregor? Arenāt you well? Do you need anything?ā
Gregor replied to both sides, āIām ready now,ā and by enunciating fastidiously with drawn-out pauses between words, he tried to eliminate anything abnormal from his voice. Indeed, the father returned to his breakfast; but the sister whispered, āGregor, open up, I beg you.ā However, Gregor had absolutely no intention of opening up; instead, he praised the cautious habit he had developed during his travels of locking all doors at night, even in his home.
For now, he wanted to get up calmly and without being nagged, put on his clothes, above all have breakfast, and only then think about what to do next; for he realized he would come to no sensible conclusion by pondering in bed. He remembered that often, perhaps from lying awkwardly, he had felt a slight ache, which, upon his getting up, had turned out to be purely imaginary, and he looked forward to seeing todayās fancies gradually fading away. He had no doubt whatsoever that the change in his voice was nothing but the harbinger of a severe cold, an occupational hazard of traveling salesmen.
Throwing off the blanket was quite simple; all he had to do was puff himself up a little, and it dropped away by itself. Doing anything else, however, was difficult, especially since he was so uncommonly broad. He would have needed arms and hands to prop himself up, and all he had was the numerous tiny legs that kept perpetually moving every which way but without his managing to control them. If he tried to bend a leg, it first straightened out; and if he finally succeeded in taking charge of it, the other legs meanwhile all kept carrying on, as if emancipated, in extreme and painful agitation. āJust donāt dawdle in bed,ā Gregor told himself.
To start with, he wanted to get out of bed with the lower part of his body; but this portion, which, incidentally, he had not yet seen and could not properly visualize, proved too cumbersome to moveāit went so slowly. And when eventually, having grown almost frantic, he gathered all his strength and recklessly thrust forward, he chose the wrong direction and slammed violently into the lower bedpost, whereupon the burning pain he then felt made him realize that the lower part of his body might be precisely the most sensitive, at least for now.
He therefore first tried to get his upper portion out of the bed, and to do so he cautiously turned his head toward the side of the mattress. This actually proved easy; and eventually, despite its breadth and weight, his body bulk slowly followed the twisting of his head. But when his head was finally looming over the edge of the bed, in the free air, he was scared of advancing any further in this manner; for if he ultimately let himself plunge down like this, only an outright miracle would prevent injury to his head. And no matter what, he must not lose consciousness now of all times; he would be better off remaining in bed.
But when, sighing after repeating this exertion, he still lay there as before, watching his tiny legs battle each other perhaps even more fiercely and finding no way to bring peace and order to this idiosyncratic condition, he again mused that he could not possibly stay there. The most logical recourse would be to make any sacrifice whatsoever if there was even the slightest hope of his freeing himself from the bed. Yet at the same time, he did not neglect to keep reminding himself that a calm, indeed the calmest reflection was far superior to desperate resolves. In such moments, he fixed his eyes as sharply as he could on the window; but unfortunately, little comfort or encouragement could be drawn from the sight of the morning fog, which shrouded even the other side of the narrow street. āAlready seven oāclock,ā he said to himself when the alarm clock struck again, āalready seven oāclock and still such a thick fog.ā And for a short while, he lay quietly, breathing faintly, as if perhaps expecting the silence to restore real and normal circumstances.
But then he told himself, āI absolutely must be out of bed completely before the clock strikes seven-fifteen. Besides, by then someone from work will come to inquire about me, since the office opens before seven.ā And he now began seesawing the full length of his body at an altogether even rhythm in order to rock it from the bed. If he could get himself to tumble from the bed in this way, then he would no doubt prevent injury to his head by lifting it sharply while falling. His back seemed hard; nothing was likely to happen to it during the landing on the carpet. His greatest misgiving was about the loud crash that was sure to ensue, probably causing anxiety if not terror behind all the doors. Still, this risk had to be run.
By the time Gregor was already sticking halfway out of the bed (this new method was more of a game than a struggle, all he had to do was keep seesawing and wrenching himself along), it occurred to him how easy everything would be if someone lent him a hand. It would take only two strong people (he thought of his father and the maid); they would only have to slip their arms under his vaulted back, slide him out of the bed, crouch down with their burden, and then just wait patiently and cautiously as he flipped over to the floor, where he hoped his tiny legs would have some purpose. Now quite aside from the fact that the doors were locked, should he really call for assistance? Despite his misery, he could not help smiling at the very idea.
By now he was already seesawing so intensely that he barely managed to keep his balance, and so he would have to make up his mind very soon, for it was already ten after sevenāwhen the doorbell rang. āItās someone from the office,ā he told himself, almost petrified, while his tiny legs only danced all the more hastily. For an instant, there was total hush. āTheyāre not answering,ā Gregor said to himself, prey to some absurd hope. But then of course, the maid, as usual, strode firmly to the door and opened it. Gregor only had to hear the visitorās first word of greeting and he knew who it wasāthe office manager himself. Why oh why was Gregor condemned to working for a company where the slightest tardiness aroused the murkiest suspicions? Was every last employee a scoundrel, wasnāt there a single loyal and dedicated person among them, a man who, if he failed to devote even a few morning hours to the firm, would go crazy with remorse, becoming absolutely incapable of leaving his bed? Wouldnāt it suffice to send an office boy to inquireāif indeed this snooping were at all necessary? Did the office manager himself have to come, did the entire innocent family have to be shown that this was the only person who had enough brains to be entrusted with investigating this suspicious affair? And more because of these agitating reflections than because of any concrete decision, Gregor swung himself out of bed with all his might. There was a loud thud, but not really a crash. His fall was slightly cushioned by the carpet; and also, his back was more pliable than he had thought. Hence the dull thud was not so blatant. However, by not holding his head carefully enough, he had banged it; now he twisted it, rubbing it on the carpet in annoyance and pain.
āSomething fell in there,ā said the office manager in the left-hand room. Gregor tried to imagine whether something similar to what had happened to him today might not someday happen to the office manager. After all, the possibility had to be granted. However, as if in brusque response to this question, the office manager now took a few resolute steps in the next room, causing his patent-leather boots to creak.
From the right-hand room, the sister informed Gregor in a whisper, āGregor, the office manager is here.ā
āI know,ā said Gregor to himself, not daring to speak loudly enough for the sister to hear.
āGregor,ā the father now said from the left-hand room, āthe office manager has come to inquire why you didnāt catch the early train. We have no idea what to tell him. Besides, he would like to speak to you personally. So please open the door. Iām sure he will be kind enough to overlook the disorder in the room.ā
āGood morning, Mr. Samsa,ā the office manager was calling amiably.
āHeās not well,ā the mother said to the office manager while the father kept talking through the door, āheās not well, believe me, sir. Why else would Gregor miss a train! I mean, the boy thinks of nothing but his job. Iām almost annoyed that he never goes out in the evening; goodness, heās been back in town for a whole week now, but heās stayed in every single night. He just sits here at the table, quietly reading the newspaper or poring over timetables. The only fun he has is when he does some fretsawing. For instance, he spent two or three evenings carving out a small picture frame; youād be amazed how pretty it is. Itās hanging inside, in his room; youāll see it in a moment when Gregor opens the door. By the way, sir, Iām delighted that youāre here; we could never have gotten Gregor to unlock the door by ourselvesāheās so stubborn; and he must be under the weather, even though he denied it this morning.ā
āIāll be right there,ā said Gregor slowly and deliberately, but not stirring so as not to miss one word of the conversation.
āI can think of no other explanation either, Mrs. Samsa,ā said the manager, āI do hope it is nothing serious. Though still and all, I must say that for business reasons we businessmenāunfortunately or fortunately, as you willāvery often must simply overcome a minor indisposition.ā
āWell, can the manager come into your room now?ā asked the impatient father, knocking on the door again.
āNo,ā said Gregor. In the left-hand room there was an embarrassed silence, in the right-hand room the sister began sobbing.
Why didnāt she join the others? She had probably only just gotten out of bed and not yet started dressing. And what was she crying about? Because Gregor wouldnāt get up and let the manager in, because he was in danger of losing his job, and because the boss would then go back to dunning Gregorās parents with his old claims? For the time being, those were most likely pointless worries. Gregor was still here and had no intention whatsoever of running out on his family. True, at this moment he was simply lying on the carpet, and no one aware of his condition would have seriously expected him to let in the manager. Indeed, Gregor could hardly be dismissed on the spot for this petty discourtesy, for which he would easily hit on an appropriate excuse later on. He felt it would make far more sense if they left him alone for now instead of pestering him with tears and coaxing. However, the others were in a state of suspense, which justified their behavior.
āMr. Samsa,ā the manager now called out, raising his voice, āwhat is wrong? You are barricading yourself in your room, answering only āyesā or āno,ā causing your parents serious and unnecessary anxieties, andāI only mention this in passingāneglecting your professional duties in a truly outrageous manner. I am speaking on behalf of your parents and the director of the firm and I am quite earnestly requesting an immediate and cogent explanation. I am dumbfounded, dumbfounded. I believed you to be a quiet, reasonable person, and now you suddenly seem intent on flaunting bizarre moods. This morning the director hinted at a possible explanation for your tardinessāit pertained to the cash collections that you were recently entrusted withābut in fact I practically gave him my word of honor that this explanation could not be valid. Now, however, I am witnessing your incomprehensible stubbornness, which makes me lose any and all desire to speak up for you in any way whatsoever. And your job is by no means rock solid. My original intention was to tell you all this in private, but since you are forcing me to waste my time here needlessly, I see no reason why your parents should not find out as well. Frankly, your recent work has been highly unsatisfactory. We do appreciate that this is not the season for doing a lot of business; still, there is no season whatsoever, there can be no season for doing no business at all, Mr. Samsa.ā
āBut, sir,ā Gregor exclaimed, beside himself, forgetting everything else in his agitation, āIāll open the door immediately, this very instant. A slight indisposition, a dizzy spell have prevented me from getting up. I am still lying in bed. But now I am quite fresh again. I am getting out of bed this very second. Please be patient for another moment or two! It is not going as well as I expected. But I do feel fine. How suddenly it can overcome a person! Just last night I was quite well, my parents know I wasāor rather, last night I did have a slight foreboding. It must have been obvious to anyone else. Just why didnāt I report it at the office!? But one always thinks one can get over an illness without staying home. Sir! Please spare my parents! There are no grounds for any of the things you are accusing me ofāin fact, no one has ever so much as breathed a word to me. Perhaps you have not seen the latest orders that I sent in. Anyhow, I will be catching the eight A.M. train, these several hours of rest have revitalized me. Do not waste any more of your time, sir; Iāll be in the office myself instantlyāplease be kind enough to inform them of this and to give my best to the director!ā
And while hastily blurting out all these things, barely knowing what he was saying, Gregor, most likely because of his practice in bed, had managed to get closer to the wardrobe and was now trying to pull himself up against it. He truly wanted to open the door, truly show himself and speak to the office manager; he was eager to learn what the others, who were so keen on his presence now, would say upon seeing him. If they were shocked, then Gregor would bear no further responsibility and could hold his peace. But if they accepted everything calmly, then he likewise had no reason to get upset, and could, if he stepped on it, actually be in the station by eight. At first, he kept sliding down the smooth side of the wardrobe, but eventually he gave himself a final swing and stood there ignoring the burning pains in his abdomen, distressful as they were. Next he let himself keel over against the back of a nearby chair, his tiny legs clinging to the edges. In this way, he gained control of himself and he kept silent, for now he could listen to the office manager.
āDid you understand a single word of that?ā the office manager asked the parents. āHeās not trying to make fools of us, is he?!ā
āFor goodnessā sake,ā the mother exclaimed, already weeping, āhe may be seriously ill and weāre torturing him. Grete! Grete!ā she then shouted.
āMother?ā the sister called from the other side. They were communicating across Gregorās room. āYou have to go to the doctor immediately. Gregor is sick. Hurry, get the doctor. Did you hear Gregor talking just now?ā
āThat was an animalās voice,ā said the manager, his tone noticeably soft compared with the motherās shouting.
āAnna! Anna!ā the father called through the vestibule into the kitchen, clapping his hands, āGet a locksmith immediately!ā And the two girls, their skirts rustling, were already dashing through the vestibule (how could the sister have dressed so quickly?) and tearing the apartment door open. No one heard it slamming; they must have left it open, as is common in homes that are struck by disaster.
Gregor, however, had grown much calmer. True, the others no longer understood what he said even though it sounded clear enough to him, clearer than before, perhaps because his ears had gotten used to it. But nevertheless, the others now believed there was something not quite right about him, and they were willing to help. His spirits were brightened by the aplomb and assurance with which their first few instructions had been carried out. He felt included once again in human society and, without really drawing a sharp distinction between the doctor and the locksmith, he expected magnificent and astonishing feats from both. Trying to make his voice as audible as he could for the cruci...