CHAPTER ONE
What is Emetophobia?
So what exactly is emetophobia? Apart from it being an extreme fear of sickness and vomiting, it is also powerful. This phobia is so life-encompassing. It affects sufferers in everything they do, all day long. Someone who is a non-emet may say, āWell no one likes being sick.ā Yes, that is true, but to an emetophobe it is much more than that. The phobia doesnāt just affect sufferers when they feel unwell or see someone else is unwell, it affects them every hour of every day. There is the constant worry, the anxiety, the stress about catching a bug, of seeing someone be sick in public, of hearing a colleague mention that his or her child was poorly during the night or of hearing that thereās a bug going round. One of the biggest concerns and worst times of the year for an emetophobe is the season for the winter vomiting bug (Norovirus), when a lot of emetophobes refuse to leave their homes or allow anyone to enter them from about November through to May, when they might deem it āsafeā.
An emetophobe is usually extremely underweight. Many of them are on anti-anxiety medications. Some self-harm or are suicidal. Emetophobia is one of the top five phobias, yet little is known about it because sufferers are so secretive. They assume they are alone in the world and many of them donāt realise that there are others like them until they reach their thirties or even their forties.
Sadly, Tinaās situation is not unique. Many medical professionals, including counsellors and therapists, have never heard of emetophobia and those that have do not yet have the ācureā that all emetophobes seek. All emetophobes want is to live a normal life like everyone else. They donāt want the fear, they donāt enjoy it. Itās not like arachnophobia (a fear of spiders) where sufferers can escape if they see a spider in the room. The thing causing emetophobesā fear is inside of them; their stomach. You canāt run away from that ā itās part of you. This is why many emetophobes cut themselves and self-harm. Itās a way of punishing the body for what it is doing to them. It releases the tension building up to catastrophic levels inside.
Because of this phobia, many emetophobes feel so much pressure and fear on a daily basis that they are unable to hold down a full-time job. Being surrounded by so many people, some who might have been ill or have children who could have caught a bug from school, is just too much. They eavesdrop on conversations, not because theyāre nosy and want to gossip but because theyāre trying to protect themselves. They need to know that the people sitting near them or standing next to them havenāt been ill. If they have, then theyāll start to panic that theyāll get sick next and need to get away. Many emetophobes have lost their jobs because of the amount of sick leave theyāve taken, so many just have part-time positions or no job at all because itās safer.
Relationships can also be affected:
Stories like Keithās abound in the emet community. Many female emets who āfaced the gauntlet of morning sicknessā and are mothers, actually move out of their homes when their children catch a bug at school. They feel for their children and ache to comfort them like any parent would, but are terrified of being near them. One mother wrote to say that she camped out in the back garden leaving her husband to take care of their son who was being violently ill while she āshivered with fearā and berated herself for being so selfish and cowardly
Emetophobia is like this. It is an incredibly strong phobia. It has a powerful hold and once itās there you have to find ways of coping with it. But how? And how do you deal with the reactions of people who think youāre just over-reacting? Read on and this book will tell you how and it will also show you how to cope with those times when the emetophobia envelops you.
Types of emetophobia
The UKās premier site for emetophobes, providing information and support, is called Gut Reaction (see Organisations and online resources, p. 157), founded by emet sufferer Linda Dean. On the site, she explains the two main types of emetophobic sufferers in simple terms:
Emetophobes fall into two categories:
ā¢ Those who primarily fear themselves vomiting and
ā¢ Those who primarily fear others vomiting.1
Of course, like any illness, mental or otherwise, there are many varying levels among each type. I would argue that there is a third type ā those who fear both themselves and others vomiting. Each of these types is then divided into āanxiety-basedā sufferers and ānausea-basedā sufferers.
Anxiety-based sufferers already have an underlying anxiety, usually accompanied by strong panic attacks, mild agoraphobia and social phobia. Their anxiety leads to nausea, which (in a vicious circle) causes stronger panic attacks, increased feelings of sickness and physical shaking.
Nausea-based sufferers are those with a physical illness that causes symptoms of nausea. This nausea then triggers their phobic reaction to the sensations of sickness, which in turn leads to more anxiety and further symptoms of nausea (Gut Reaction 1999-2006).
Recognising emetophobia
So how would an ordinary person, or doctor, or counsellor, spot an emetophobic sufferer? Itās difficult. Unless the person with emet chooses to tell you, it would be highly unlikely that anyone would spot one, at least in todayās climate. Even though emetophobia is one of the most common phobias, it is hardly known about. Emets guard their phobia for many reasons. Perhaps āguardā is the wrong word. Most emets tend to think that they are the only one like it and many have reported that they only learnt there were others like them when they were in their thirties or later. (With the widespread use of the Internet, younger emets are now discovering there are thousands like them all across the globe.)
Sufferers are highly skilled at making excuses when they are put in situations that they feel will threaten them with their worst nightmare ā sickness and vomiting. If tasks or events are suggested which emets feel will put them at risk or expose them to infection, they are quick to think up some excuse that will get them out of the situation. Itās almost an instinct of self-preservation. If this seems an exaggeration, be aware that most emets feel that being sick ā actually throwing up ā is worse than dying.
Indicators for family members to look out and for doctors to be aware of are habitual patterns of avoidance. This avoidance can be around what many people may consider run-of-the-mill life situations such as avoiding public transport or insisting on being the driver of their own car whilst others in a group travel by train or bus. They will often refuse to travel by boat or aeroplane, never going abroad or on holiday to strange destinations. Fairgrounds and theme parks are definite no-go areas due to the risk of seeing others being ill after a particularly dizzying ride.
Sufferers also adopt highly meticulous food hygiene. They have rules about what they will eat and what they deem āsafeā. They have even been known to inspect a restaurant kitchen before ordering a dish (that is if you have managed to get them out in the first place). The majority of emets will eat foods that they donāt have to touch with their fingers, but largely consider āfinger foodsā as the safest. This usually means that they eat food straight from its wrapping without touching it or, if they have to touch it, will eat most of a sandwich but throw away the corner that they have been holding. Many emets have a diet they consider āsafeā such as well-washed fruit and vegetables that couldnāt possibly give them food poisoning. Crisps, biscuits and sandwiches are usually also considered safe. Cooked food will be dissected carefully to check that it has cooked all the way through. The slightest hint of pink in chicken will mean that it wonāt be touched, nor any of the food touching the chicken, in case of contamination.
Medical treatment
Medical treatment is often avoided, even if it could mean saving their lives. The idea of going into a doctorās surgery for an appointment is anathema. If they are forced to go, they will choose to sit by an open window to breathe ācleanā air. They wonāt touch anything, wonāt read a magazine in case it has been touched by someone ill, wonāt lick their lips in case germs adhere to their mouths and they often try to breathe shallowly through the nose:
Medical procedures such as surgery that involve general anaesthesia are considered such an awful prospect that most e...