CHAPTER 1
RULES OF ENGAGEMENT
Where are you going? I havenât finished yet. Get back here â we need to talk this through!â
I canât remember the catalyst for our first argument, but I can remember clearly the way my fiancĂ©e calmly left the room. It was the first âspirited debateâ we had experienced in our five-year relationship. It was a mystery to me why Gai would walk away and leave the matter unresolved. Iâm not sure whether I was more angry about our disagreement or her calm exit. Shouldnât the situation stir up a more emotional response on her part?
In the doorway her gentle voice spoke volumes: âIâll speak with you when youâre ready to stop yelling and start talking.â
âIâm ready now!â I yelled back.
âClearly youâre not,â she whispered as she quietly left the room.
The solution is often found away from the experience, not knee-deep in it!
Not that I knew it then, but the time alone helped me to achieve a major breakthrough that would affect not only my communication with the person I loved more than life itself, but my wider communication from that day forward.
On communication failure
How could two people who had so much in common be so far apart in their thinking? Thinking about everything we were about to embark on in the coming year, including exchanging vows in front of our respective families and close friends, I wondered whether it might be hard to make a lifetime commitment to each other if the first sign of trouble saw one of us retreating from the room. We had only recently got engaged and already I could not imagine my life without her, but I was perplexed by how to resolve what seemed like a serious communication problem.
Even then, in that uneasy moment, I did not question our relationship, just the manner in which we communicated with each other, especially in times of stress and challenge. In the many years ahead of us circumstances would surely conspire to put us in a place of conflict, and we would need a better way of resolving these differences than evidenced in our first poor attempt.
How could we hold such opposing views on the same situation? We shared so much â including, as I will deÂscribe, surprisingly comparable upbringings â that the idea of total disagreement on any subject at this stage in our relationship was hard for me to accept. Until that point we had seemed to agree on everything important. In fact, what we had experienced was not so much a disagreement as a communication failure.
Gai and I are both the second youngest of five children. I have a brother and three sisters. She has a sister and three brothers. Both our mothers were adopted. Both were nurses in country towns. Both our fathers were blue-collar workers, men who possessed a higher intellect than their menial jobs required. Both our fathers put their life ambitions on hold to provide secure homes for their families, to feed and clothe and provide for their children as best they could. In both households the weekly pay cheque did not stretch to the end of the week.
We know that both of our fathers went to work under sufferance. At the end of the working day they would each repair to their local drinking establishment (as chance would have it, less than five kilometres apart) and the company of like-minded mates. They didnât go to the pub to âtalk throughâ their problems; they went to escape them. It was the Australian way. After a few hours of drowning their sorrows they would return home and take out their personal frustrations on the person they saw as the source of their problems â our respective mothers. After all, as they saw it, their wives were the ones who had fallen pregnant and started a family they then had to support, thereby denying them the chance to pursue their own dreams in life. The volatile mix of alcohol and personal frustration more often than not saw ordinary arguments lead to physical violence.
I had assumed, wrongly, that, as long as I did not follow my fatherâs example of resorting to physical violence during an argument, I could justify my fit of temper. Clearly I was mistaken. I thought as a student of my environment, as opposed to a product of it, I understood the right approach to successful communication with my future wife. Mistake number two!
Growing up with different communication rules
What became obvious once we had reunited an hour later was that despite all the similarities with respect to our parents, siblings and life experiences, we had actually grown up with very different rules when it came to handling disputes. It was imperative that we talk through these differences and produce a plan that we could use in any future conflicts. Part of that plan had to be to build a âreality bridgeâ between our two upbringings.
In our household, if I had a dispute with my brother or sisters we had to stay in the room for as long as it took to resolve the matter. No matter how loud we yelled or how physical our body language got (so long as no blows were exchanged), our parents allowed us to resolve the dispute without their passing judgement. (It was a classic case of âdo as I say, not as I doâ on my fatherâs part.) Once the argument was sorted and we had left the room, the dispute was never raised again. This was one of our house rules, and I came to assume that this was how all families settled their differences. But I was about to share a home with someone who played by different rules.
In Gaiâs family, once a dispute with a sibling reached a point of âraised voicesâ, the rule was that one party leave the room and that they revisit the dispute later when calmer heads prevailed. This was a foreign concept to me.
When she had explained this to me, as she did so clearly and calmly an hour after my outburst, I realised that while we had a common goal of resolving the argument, we had very different ideas of how to get there. I quickly shifted my thinking away from âjudgingâ her approach to understanding her point of view that nothing positive can be gained from anger. Gai believed that once you remove yourself from a conflict, you give yourself the space and time to think through the situation and arrive at a better solution. It was obvious that our approaches conflicted and were mutually exclusive. When tensions arose between us, I followed a rule that I had observed and followed all my life. Put simply, I chose to stay in the room and plead my case passionately, and insist on a resolution before leaving it. Again, in my thinking, so long as I did not get physically violent I was not doing anything wrong.
Gai, in turn, was following the conflict resolution handbook that she had used all of her life. I didnât know that my yelling broke one of her rules. In fact, in her thinking, shouting at someone was just as abhorrent as physical violence, which I had incorrectly assumed was the real âline in the sandâ. She was also unaware that leaving the room before the matter was resolved broke one of my rules. By walking out she was telling me she did not value my opinion or respect my feelings, whereas in her thinking she left the room because she did care about my feelings. Clearly, by following our own personal rules of engagement we were each unknowingly communicating in a manner that suggested we did not care about the other.
If not for this new insight into the differences in our upbringing, I am fairly certain that our relationship would have gone the way of so many marriages in the Western world, where divorce is all too common. We determined to set our own house rules to avoid that outcome. Growing up in a hostile home had caused us both immense pain as children, and we were committed to sparing our own children such a fate at all costs. (I was always a forward thinker.) An hour before, we had been following opposing communication rules. Now, thinking calmly, we were able to set new rules of engagement for our relationship from that day on.
Recognise rules challenges
Later that experience got me thinking. Why did so many marriages end in divorce? My best guess at the time was that, as in our own relationship, most couples were drawn together by attraction alone. Whether a physical attraction, personality attraction, status attraction or simply Cupidâs arrow, these relationships are initially based on the attractiveness of the other. And in the early stages of the relationship we tend to pass over any perceived faults our new chosen partners may reveal. We have the expectation that in time, if they truly love us, they will fall more in line with our thinking and make the necessary adjustments.
Once romance gives way to familiarity, however, we tend to notice more how our partnerâs behaviour breaches rules we hold dear. The challenge is that our partner will be oblivious to these breaches. Indeed, they wonât even know these rules exist. I came to believe that most relationship challenges were ârules challengesâ. The problem, as I saw it, was that most couples were using âthe forceâ to communicate these rules and expecting their partner to possess âJedi thinkingâ to sense the shifts in the force and behave accordingly.
I saw this firsthand with my parents.
This, from my father, was part question but typically more statement or challenge.
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